February 14, 2008
So I dont know what color my hair is...It really bothers me! I know thats kinda werid but what can I say... Its like every color of brown you can ever imagine! So I had a dream about Jeff last night. Jeffery Ivy...isnt that really weird? So I was some where with two building in about an "L" shape and he was going to the other building I was in, but he knew I was in the other one. I walked outside and was pretty upset, and he knew I was coming, we were talking I think kinda like arguing but not yelling, kinda joking maybe. He was driving a camero and I remember commenting on it. But it wasnt a camero I think it was a Geo. It changed after I asked him. Then I remember walking away from him and his friend passed me and asked where he was and I told him. There was more to it. I know there was, but I cant remember. I hate this, the whole Jeff situation. It was so horrible, yet good. I hate it!!
Also I dont know if I like Shane of if its more, I like having someone who cares about me....
Shane is really sweet, but part of me just doesnt believe him. I mean he says he cares, and what not, but I just feel he is good at saying the "right" thing. But I am not that girl, I dont like being told I am beautiful, because that has nothing to do with me as a person. If he wants to say Im beautiful, then I think he should say I am a beautiful person, or a something to that nature! I just dont believe him, I mean does he really know me? NO, I can be such a horrible person, I try not to, but when it comes to guys I usually am. I just dont like to get hurt, so I hurt before I can get hurt. Relationships is something I dont take a chance at! NOPE! Also when we are in public he is so touchy...I dont mind when we are at a store or something like that. But we dont have to be touching 24/7, too much.
BUT!
On the other hand, he knows when something is wrong. Even through texts...thats pretty great! He also gets me, I can talk to him about the stupidest, random things. For example, ceral and milk...or when we send the same word like really back and forth and see who wins..like really then really really, then really really really, and so on, untill one person gets bored and says you win...haha Those things are great about him. But I dont know, why do relationships, or anything like that so complicated...maybe I just make it that way, but they just tend to be too much for me!
Anyways!! I decided to pierce my nose AGAIN! 3rd times the charm right? I want to get it pierced so I can wear hoop or a stud! Its going to HAWT!!!! not hot!! I am pretty stoked! I really hope Shane decides to come....HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE!!!
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Why I hate Valenines day. Not because its a lonely holiday for those who are single, like me. But because it is superficial holiday! Think about it...your supposed to show the person you care about them that you actually do right? Well my personal opinion of this is that if you truly care about someone you should show it extra one particular day of a year. If anything that should be an anniversary! If you truly care about them you should want to show and tell them everyday! One day shouldnt be better than another day! And gifts to show how much you care about someone? No!! Thats just like buying their love. This holiday is so "big" everyone talking about it acting like its inportant or something. As if it were Christmas or Thanksgiving. We dont ever get it off. How important can it be? I just wish I could find someone that didnt care about this day either! That would be great!
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Also I dont know if I like Shane of if its more, I like having someone who cares about me....
Shane is really sweet, but part of me just doesnt believe him. I mean he says he cares, and what not, but I just feel he is good at saying the "right" thing. But I am not that girl, I dont like being told I am beautiful, because that has nothing to do with me as a person. If he wants to say Im beautiful, then I think he should say I am a beautiful person, or a something to that nature! I just dont believe him, I mean does he really know me? NO, I can be such a horrible person, I try not to, but when it comes to guys I usually am. I just dont like to get hurt, so I hurt before I can get hurt. Relationships is something I dont take a chance at! NOPE! Also when we are in public he is so touchy...I dont mind when we are at a store or something like that. But we dont have to be touching 24/7, too much.
BUT!
On the other hand, he knows when something is wrong. Even through texts...thats pretty great! He also gets me, I can talk to him about the stupidest, random things. For example, ceral and milk...or when we send the same word like really back and forth and see who wins..like really then really really, then really really really, and so on, untill one person gets bored and says you win...haha Those things are great about him. But I dont know, why do relationships, or anything like that so complicated...maybe I just make it that way, but they just tend to be too much for me!
Anyways!! I decided to pierce my nose AGAIN! 3rd times the charm right? I want to get it pierced so I can wear hoop or a stud! Its going to HAWT!!!! not hot!! I am pretty stoked! I really hope Shane decides to come....HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE HOPE!!!
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Why I hate Valenines day. Not because its a lonely holiday for those who are single, like me. But because it is superficial holiday! Think about it...your supposed to show the person you care about them that you actually do right? Well my personal opinion of this is that if you truly care about someone you should show it extra one particular day of a year. If anything that should be an anniversary! If you truly care about them you should want to show and tell them everyday! One day shouldnt be better than another day! And gifts to show how much you care about someone? No!! Thats just like buying their love. This holiday is so "big" everyone talking about it acting like its inportant or something. As if it were Christmas or Thanksgiving. We dont ever get it off. How important can it be? I just wish I could find someone that didnt care about this day either! That would be great!
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