BLEED ME OUT SO I CAN DIE
I AM SO FUCKIN TIRED OF SHIT AND PEOPLE TALKING SHIT......YOU KNOW I FEEL FUCKIN RESPONIBLE FOR BREAKING A FRIENDSHIP AND BECAUSE OF THAT AND WHAT HAPPENED PEOPLE ARE TALKING SHIT...IT IS NOT THEIR FUCKING BUSINESS, IT ALMOST FEELS AS IF I HAVE NO FUCKING SAY IN HOW I FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL AS IF I AM THE ONE TO BLAME AND YOU KNOW WHAT MAYBE I AM THE ONE TO BLAME....YOU HEAR ME BLAME ME.....IT WON'T BE ANY DIFFERNET THAN ANY OTHER TIME WILL IT? FUCK NO I AM THE ONE THAT IS SHOVED IN A FUCKING CONCER ON MY DADS SIDE OF THE FAMILY AND ALMOST FORGOTTEN ABOUT, IT IS ALL ABOUT FUCKING LEE.....WHAT ABOUT ME???? HUMMM WHAT ABOUT ME??? WAIT A MOMENT I AM NOT THAT IMPORTANT NEVER HAVE BE NEVER WILL BE.....YOU KNOW MUCH I THINK ABOUT SUICIDE YOU WOULD NOT USLESS YOU REALLY KNEW ABOUT ME AND YOU FUCKIN KNEW ME......BUT NO PEOPLE DO NOT KNOW ME BECAUSE I ONLY LET THEM SEE THE OUTSIDE ME AND I PUT A FUCKING SMILE ON MY FUCKING FACE WHEN I AM SO FUCKING TORN UP ON THE FUCKING INSIDE.....BUT NO ONE SEES THAT NOW DO THAT....FUCK NO.....I AM SO ALONE ALMOST ALWAYS EVEN WHEN I AM A FUCKING ROOM FULL OF PEOPLE BUT THAT NEVER MATTERS AND IT NEVER WILL.....IT HURTS SO BAD EVERYTHING AND THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO FUCKING CONTROL, UNLESS I COULD CAUSE HARM TO MYSELF AND LET IT FUCKING ESCAPE BUT I FUCKING CAN NOT DO THAT I AM UNABLE TOO......SO I HOPE YOU ALL FUCKING HAPPY, NOW THAT I AM CRYING AND ROCKING AND INSIDE MY FUCKING SELF I WILL ALWAYS LAY ALONE IN SORROWS AND SADINESS THAT NEVER SEEMS TO FUCKING ESCAPE ME NO MATTER WHAT THE FUCK I DO....I FUCKING FUCK UP EVERYONE LIFE.......WHEN WILL IT EVER FUCKING END?? WAIT NEVER!!! IT WILL ALWAYS FOLLOW ME NO MATTER WHO I LOVE NO MATTER WHAT THE FUCK I DO AND YOU KNOW WHAT PEOPLE WILL NEVER FUCKING KNOW THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME BECAUSE I WILL NEVER FUCKING SHOW IT......DO NOT WORRY ABOUT ME OR MY FUCKING FEELINGS BECAUSE IT HONESTLY DOES NOT MATTER.....I FUCKING GIVE UP ON TRYING TO MATTER TO PEOPLE I WILL ALWAYS BE IN THE FUCKING SHADOWS AND NO ONE WILL EVERY FUCKING KNOW ME SO THAT WAY I CAN NOT FUCKING FUCK UP THEIR LIFE.....NO WORRIES I WILL CAUSE HARM TO MYSELF....SO DO NOT WORRY ABOUT ME, BECAUSE I AM NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!