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I don't know why, I just don't know...why do I get this reaction when I hear him speak? Like I want to throw up. It's so strange! I don't know if there's any way I can control it.
I guess it's because during the whole year, he's talked about his co workers...and everytime he talked about them, it would just annoy me so. I couldn't stand it. And now, I just get so nervous whenever he talks about that kind of stuff. My heart beats loudly in my chest and I can feel my food coming up...and i have to excuse myself to calm myself down. I've never actually had to...cause I leave so quickly when it happens. I don't know what it is! I'm afraid I'll never be able to talk to him about it again. IT'S NOTHING I CAN CONTROL. This is so weird. I think I need to find out about this.
I tried telling him about it tonight. I told him the truth, and I don't know why this is happening.
But he got mad and thought I insulted him...which I didn't! I don't know why I feel like this!
On a better note...school started. New school! At Seacrest. I think I love it. And the people there. I love how there is so much flexibility, and that they're willing to work with me and look at me as an individual.
Ballet is starting again on Saturday and I couldn't be more thrilled. :)
xoxoxoxo<3
I guess it's because during the whole year, he's talked about his co workers...and everytime he talked about them, it would just annoy me so. I couldn't stand it. And now, I just get so nervous whenever he talks about that kind of stuff. My heart beats loudly in my chest and I can feel my food coming up...and i have to excuse myself to calm myself down. I've never actually had to...cause I leave so quickly when it happens. I don't know what it is! I'm afraid I'll never be able to talk to him about it again. IT'S NOTHING I CAN CONTROL. This is so weird. I think I need to find out about this.
I tried telling him about it tonight. I told him the truth, and I don't know why this is happening.
But he got mad and thought I insulted him...which I didn't! I don't know why I feel like this!
On a better note...school started. New school! At Seacrest. I think I love it. And the people there. I love how there is so much flexibility, and that they're willing to work with me and look at me as an individual.
Ballet is starting again on Saturday and I couldn't be more thrilled. :)
xoxoxoxo<3