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Today I will give myself to the wind ...
in every breath I take... in everything I touch
let my senses know not of physics
feel the freedom within my body, uncontained
let me feel you in every pore of my skin
let me be like a child and give myself to you
take me without any regrets, tenderly
let me sip on your joy and gulp down the past
forget about this world and its troubles
forget about everyone and everything
take me to a place where only freedom exists
show me something no one's ever shown me before
let me not fall on my knees
let me belong to you
let me be free... like the wind... like my soul
Lilly
I can't remember the last time I posted. Hummm... I'm too lazy to look at the dates in my posts. haha well, guess here's an update:
i havent called matt L. last time i spoke to him i told him i would call him when i felt ready to. that really went downhill for us. i mean, i was so excited at first, for my best friend to be my boyfriend, but then things got weird and i don't know, i guess it was a little scarry. :( but, i've been meaning to call him to tell him its ok. it's not that i was hurt, it's just that when things don't go as i plan them, well, i get a little upset. yeah, something i need to learn how to deal with.
i'm not dating anyone. i don't really think i'm looking for anyone. i feel so satisfied like this.
i don't go out drinking like i used to (or drink for that matter), i don't smoke, i dont' "party", i don't "kiss" girls, i'm not interested in doing so ever again, i don't curse... i'm like a whole new person, but i'm still me. :)
i've met amazing people and oh, i'm also about to graduate! should graduate in october! yeya! if everything goes as planned. i could die before that. who knows?
professor Shewmakers death has me a little sad. i meant to visit her when she was in the hospital, i just never seemed to have the time. i refused to think that she wouldn't get better. i planned on taking her this term, i figured she'd be out by then... but from what i've been told, it's better this way. alfonso went to see her about a month ago, and he said she was in a lot of pain. he almost broke down to tears. it's really sad.
and, professor ruff (literature class) says i'm very talented. yeya! she says i always give in-depth explanations to her inquiries. it's awesome when you take the time to analyze and elaborate on your ideas and people actually take the time to say "it was very interesting. i enjoyed it." which has also been the case for my psychology class discussions.
... and i really need to work on not writing too much!!!! I think i'm actually gonna start on my book. I've been leaving it for later, but I never seem to have time. I'm just gonna go ahead and start it. yeyah! for you guys! no more long post from lilly! hahaha