Habitual
Well it's time for that whole "end of the school year" entry thing. I haven't written in this in a while...
This year gave being busy a whole new spin. My classes definitely suffered because of it. My grades aren't bad, but their not as high as I would have liked. Writing an entry like this for the third time seems habitual. The first time was an idea, and the second was nosalgic. But the third time makes it a habit.
I'm sitting in the box office listening to Songs for A New World before I get ready to go to Dr. Ferrell's retirement party. This year has been full of change, at Nazareth anyway. Out with two faculy members and in the two new ones...it's an adjustment...especially since the theatre department is fairly tight knit. THE CRUCIBLE wasn't the most successful show, but it taught me how to be a successful supporting character. Being the person who's job it is to throw focus to others isn't as easy as one might think. And then there was BETRAYAL...oh BETRAYAL. It was an amazing experience to get to play such a rich dramatic character, which certainly isn't my forte. Of course I never would have gotten that role in a real casting situation. I'm the proof that you work with what you've got. It had it's really good moments, and it had it's hardships, but again a good learning experience. Finally, CABARET, which was the most successful of the shows I've worked on this year. CABARET taught me that I should never be a stage manager ever in life. I just don't have the emotional fortitude for it. I'm far too empathetic. However, it was fun at times and the show was a hit...I did my best. Also, One-Acts were fun. I like helping out my friends.
I did the impossible...I got myself cast in WHERE'S CHARLEY. I have a principle role in a musical...with a song...maybe two. I've wanted to do a musical for a long time...just for the different experience and to show another level of versitility. I'm really excited! Just getting cast is a personal accomplishment, and I'm told that my audition / callback was excellent so that makes me happy. Futhermore, the director is a guest director who has never seen my work before, so it's the first time at Nazareth that I've been blindly cast by someone. That means she cast me based solely on my audition...like in the real world...holy shit. Now all I have to do is do it!
Next year begins all the senior seminar / education training stuff. It's gonna be crazy, but I'm looking forward to it. A good number of my close friends are graduating, however, so I kinda feel like I'm going to be more alone, but I'll still have some close friends. I'll probably be too busy to notice. I have this feeling like next year is going to be very different of any of the other three. I don't know why; I just do.
Thank God I get a 3.5 month break before all that! I'm looking forward to coming home. I need the summer. I need to be with everyone at home, and go to Dar Williams concerts and the casino and Florida and work at the cafe for a while. I start in N. Attelboro on Friday. I'm coming home.