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urgh i'm fed up of not feeling myself. had my worst panic attack so far on saturday and it was fucking horrible. i thought i was going to die. i'm really looking forward to getting myself back to normal again (well as much as possible). start counselling on thursday blah blah blah. hopefully i won't need therapy but i feel like a floodgate's opened and i have no idea how soon it'll sort itself out.
anyway in other news i got a 2:1 so far at uni so hopefully now i've moved out of the house from hell i can do well in the third year as well. when i think about how bad that house was it's not really that surprising that i got a bit messed up. my doctor couldn't quite believe i'd put up with it for so long but really i had no choice. my third year modules are stalinism and the paris commune.
i've been in newcastle for a few days letting mum look after me. it's been lovely and i don't really want to leave but i have work back in sheffield on wednesday. plus my new flat isn't a nightmare whatsoever so i don't dread going back to it.
my lovely grandad gave me his laptop (which he bought and totally couldn't use) which feels far less like it's going to blow up at any second than my current one. hopefully when i get back the internet will be sorted and i'll feel more in touch with some kind of reality.
anyway in other news i got a 2:1 so far at uni so hopefully now i've moved out of the house from hell i can do well in the third year as well. when i think about how bad that house was it's not really that surprising that i got a bit messed up. my doctor couldn't quite believe i'd put up with it for so long but really i had no choice. my third year modules are stalinism and the paris commune.
i've been in newcastle for a few days letting mum look after me. it's been lovely and i don't really want to leave but i have work back in sheffield on wednesday. plus my new flat isn't a nightmare whatsoever so i don't dread going back to it.
my lovely grandad gave me his laptop (which he bought and totally couldn't use) which feels far less like it's going to blow up at any second than my current one. hopefully when i get back the internet will be sorted and i'll feel more in touch with some kind of reality.