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I think things are getting better. In stupid, materialistic sorts of ways. And in stupid, shallow teenaged sorts of ways. But pretending that those little things dont make me happy when they do is stupid. Because they do make me happy. And I like being happy, and I'd rather be happy with myself than be unhappy with myself, just to please the people around me.
And right now I feel like I don't have any people around me.
Not really, not for real.
Not even Gio, really. I duno. Everything feels wrong and upside down and I can't make up my mind. But I guess that just comes with the territory. And it's not bad, just different. And it's gonna take some getting used to.
I think I can make this work, think I can change myself and my life for the better. The key is in balance, finding and keeping one. I want to learn how to be alone without being lonely, and how to be lonely without losing my mind.
And right now I feel like I don't have any people around me.
Not really, not for real.
Not even Gio, really. I duno. Everything feels wrong and upside down and I can't make up my mind. But I guess that just comes with the territory. And it's not bad, just different. And it's gonna take some getting used to.
I think I can make this work, think I can change myself and my life for the better. The key is in balance, finding and keeping one. I want to learn how to be alone without being lonely, and how to be lonely without losing my mind.