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would it be ok to smoke cigarettes if they were natural american spirits that i had to hand roll myself? or cloves? do i want to smoke? i can't care about cancer until i actually get it but i don't want to get it, but there is a high chance that i will if i continue down this road. if i start again then carla will be furious with me and that will strain things more, which will not be good, i think. that show at the bar went well, especially because of how angry it made some people. the show on december second will be interesting. i think if i read more and push other things out of my time frame i will be a better person...i think books may have answers for me in them.