Blargh.
Yeah, I think I'm going to actually use this to talk about my life now. Not a bad thing, since I don't think anyone reads it. Angst time! On two counts!
First off-Band. Well, my crazy band-geek self started back for evening rehearsal yesterday, and I was quite dissapointed. End of year auditions said I should be section leader, but now I think the director is going to give Matt or Tim the job instead. That makes me so mad! I worked really hard for that spot, and he's just going to give it away to someone older. (Even though I've been playing the longest.) Grr! And of course, with Band, comes drama. Drama, drama, drama. I liked Summer. It gave me time to think things over and get my feelings straight. Now that I'm back, all of that has fallen down around my ears. I thought I had solved one internal conflict, but it's back with a vengeance. And I really miss Dan, even though I can't say why, considering all the grief he put me through. (Which was all my fault anyway, but still.) Blargh. Hopefully tonight's rehearsal will go better. At least it's short.
Second-This old thing. Yes. LJ is making me angst. Because I certainly love to angst. It's weird, because I'm not sure about fl-ettiquitte. There are several people I've met on here through comms that I like and respect, but most of them have friends-locked journals for whatever reasons, and I'd feel really weird asking them to put me on their f-lists when they don't really don't know me. Same with friending people. I'd do it, but I don't want people to think I'm stalking them or something. Having all my RL friends over on Xanga is no fun at all. Le angst. Le angst.
Random thought- I <3 my new icon.
Neon out.
First off-Band. Well, my crazy band-geek self started back for evening rehearsal yesterday, and I was quite dissapointed. End of year auditions said I should be section leader, but now I think the director is going to give Matt or Tim the job instead. That makes me so mad! I worked really hard for that spot, and he's just going to give it away to someone older. (Even though I've been playing the longest.) Grr! And of course, with Band, comes drama. Drama, drama, drama. I liked Summer. It gave me time to think things over and get my feelings straight. Now that I'm back, all of that has fallen down around my ears. I thought I had solved one internal conflict, but it's back with a vengeance. And I really miss Dan, even though I can't say why, considering all the grief he put me through. (Which was all my fault anyway, but still.) Blargh. Hopefully tonight's rehearsal will go better. At least it's short.
Second-This old thing. Yes. LJ is making me angst. Because I certainly love to angst. It's weird, because I'm not sure about fl-ettiquitte. There are several people I've met on here through comms that I like and respect, but most of them have friends-locked journals for whatever reasons, and I'd feel really weird asking them to put me on their f-lists when they don't really don't know me. Same with friending people. I'd do it, but I don't want people to think I'm stalking them or something. Having all my RL friends over on Xanga is no fun at all. Le angst. Le angst.
Random thought- I <3 my new icon.
Neon out.