stare at the air
weird, really fcuking weird morning..
i barely slept.. like less than two hours.. and that is what probably causes me feeling this strange and almost hyper.. [and if that entry is too confusing, long, bad written or anything else.. just blame the lack of sleep..]
had to go to school this morning [half past 7.. damn!] and we all got our results back from the written examns..
and now i know should feel bad cause i failed my math examns.. but to be honest:
first: i kinda expected it.. i mean i always hoped that i managed to get this stupid 2 points to pass.. but typical me: if i fail i do it completly.. i didnt even get one lil point *lol*
that means: one additional oral examns which i have to pass with 6 points..
and second: i am so fcuking proud of myself.. cause apart from the math result i made something like my dream-a-level..
i got 12 godamn brilliant points in english AND german [which i didnt expect at all.. i thought i´d get 11 in both subjects] and 5 points in chemistry.. that seems low but considering i was grinning like an idiot after being told that i wont have to do the oral examns cause i got the needed 2 points it was a real surprise..
so thats why i´m mentally jumping around atm and grinning like mad.. *lol*
but that wasnt everything.. what made the morning even weirder was a strange encounter with karo.. i honestly dont know what i should think of that...
to make it a lil bit easier to [hopefully] understand my confusion let me say something about karo first..
she goes in my class .. and she is one of those girls that everyone likes and there is really no reason to hate her.. i think she is sometimes too nice.. i dont know.. but maybe thats just my personal reasons to not like her speaking..
karo acts.. as in: plays in movies, theatre plays and tv series.. and she is really good imo..
and karo was one of the factors that screwed up my best friendship.. not the only cause.. but the one i couldnt do anything against.. thats why i cant bring myself to like her as much as most people do..
i dont know what she thinks of me.. i mean she is an actress.. so its pretty hard to read her ..
karo came to me this morning and asked me if she can do an interview with me. i was like 'huh?wtf? Ôo' and she said its okay if we do it via feletone she just wants to ask me some questions.. [i think she knows how shy i am and that i really dont like to talk about myself..paula, her best and my former best friend, probably told her]..
of course i asked her why and what for.. and she told me she wants to play me.. wtf?! Ôo
i have no idea what she is going to do and what that means cause we didnt have the time to talk more.. so i just gave her my number and she said she will call me..
so i´m really confused , hyper and torn between disappointed and scared and happy and proud...
i feel like im gonna crash under all this emotions soon.. Ôo
so hope you slept well and have a nice day.. and
cya later
*flauschs
i barely slept.. like less than two hours.. and that is what probably causes me feeling this strange and almost hyper.. [and if that entry is too confusing, long, bad written or anything else.. just blame the lack of sleep..]
had to go to school this morning [half past 7.. damn!] and we all got our results back from the written examns..
and now i know should feel bad cause i failed my math examns.. but to be honest:
first: i kinda expected it.. i mean i always hoped that i managed to get this stupid 2 points to pass.. but typical me: if i fail i do it completly.. i didnt even get one lil point *lol*
that means: one additional oral examns which i have to pass with 6 points..
and second: i am so fcuking proud of myself.. cause apart from the math result i made something like my dream-a-level..
i got 12 godamn brilliant points in english AND german [which i didnt expect at all.. i thought i´d get 11 in both subjects] and 5 points in chemistry.. that seems low but considering i was grinning like an idiot after being told that i wont have to do the oral examns cause i got the needed 2 points it was a real surprise..
so thats why i´m mentally jumping around atm and grinning like mad.. *lol*
but that wasnt everything.. what made the morning even weirder was a strange encounter with karo.. i honestly dont know what i should think of that...
to make it a lil bit easier to [hopefully] understand my confusion let me say something about karo first..
she goes in my class .. and she is one of those girls that everyone likes and there is really no reason to hate her.. i think she is sometimes too nice.. i dont know.. but maybe thats just my personal reasons to not like her speaking..
karo acts.. as in: plays in movies, theatre plays and tv series.. and she is really good imo..
and karo was one of the factors that screwed up my best friendship.. not the only cause.. but the one i couldnt do anything against.. thats why i cant bring myself to like her as much as most people do..
i dont know what she thinks of me.. i mean she is an actress.. so its pretty hard to read her ..
karo came to me this morning and asked me if she can do an interview with me. i was like 'huh?wtf? Ôo' and she said its okay if we do it via feletone she just wants to ask me some questions.. [i think she knows how shy i am and that i really dont like to talk about myself..paula, her best and my former best friend, probably told her]..
of course i asked her why and what for.. and she told me she wants to play me.. wtf?! Ôo
i have no idea what she is going to do and what that means cause we didnt have the time to talk more.. so i just gave her my number and she said she will call me..
so i´m really confused , hyper and torn between disappointed and scared and happy and proud...
i feel like im gonna crash under all this emotions soon.. Ôo
so hope you slept well and have a nice day.. and
cya later
*flauschs