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Apr 12, 2007 22:57

I can not help but feel that within the boundaries of the dreaded "Relationship", one ends up giving up too much freedom.  The last woman I was with would take any bouts of 'sadness' or 'depression' (I call it pertinent observation, wretched woman ;)) quite seriously.  It seems people want to 'fix' you somehow, make you feel 'not bad'.  At what point does a person realize that I got along just fine without them, with the same feelings, thoughts and emotions before they entered my life?

So it would suggest that the primary reason is that you are perhaps simply a drag to be around when you are not constantly celebrating life.  But wait.  That's not all!  It's ok for them to feel sad and depressed.  And when so, they just wish for you to fuck right off, just like I feel about them.  Difference is, I have not urge or desire to fix them, or to try and block their feelings and emotions out.

For fucks sake, it's not like I am going to implode.

I want them to feel these things.  They are probably feeling them for a damn good reason, they are unhappy with something.  And if you are unhappy with something, sometimes, those feelings are the only things that motivate us to actually change our situation.  Sure, constantly whinging is a pain in the arse, and I don't.  I am sure they just care, but how do you say "get out of my goddamn face" in a nice way?  "Go find a hobby".  Or "Can't we just screw?".  I kid, I kid (maybe, depends on how I feel).

Some things aren't broken.  They are exactly as they should be.  (One could argue that nothing is broken).

Also, this line of "I feel useless when I can't make you feel better" is the biggest load of self-serving bullshit I've ever heard.  What I way to make something that is completely not about you and turn it into just that.  You feel useless?  Good, then you'll piss off and leave me alone, yes?  :D
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