Wash me away sweet gentle rain, help me to find my way again.......
wow..i just...dont even know right now. i was so happy yesterday because i spoke to marco and we decided i would be going to rome on january 4th but for some peer education thing i might have to leave december 28th. thats soon. thats so soon and i cant handle it. i want this so much but i dont know what to expect.
if i do peer ed, i have to get to florence by jan 8th. i want more than 4 days in rome, therefore, enter dec 28th. this scares me. i dont know anyone going to florence and i honestly do fear and dread the prospect of being alone in a foreign city so this would help me make friends but DECEMBER 28th!! wtf! thats like TOMORROW. and what complicates this is that if i get my visa through NYU, NYU has to keep my passport until the first week of january so i'll have to get it on my own and i dont know wtf i'm doing so FUCK.
i just can't deal with this right now....I am having a panic attack and I have a presentation for journalism, of all classes, at 8 in the morning. I need midterms to be over right now so I can stop, breakdown, and start again.
and lets not talk about boys. ever.
go away feel of impending doom!
merda.
if i do peer ed, i have to get to florence by jan 8th. i want more than 4 days in rome, therefore, enter dec 28th. this scares me. i dont know anyone going to florence and i honestly do fear and dread the prospect of being alone in a foreign city so this would help me make friends but DECEMBER 28th!! wtf! thats like TOMORROW. and what complicates this is that if i get my visa through NYU, NYU has to keep my passport until the first week of january so i'll have to get it on my own and i dont know wtf i'm doing so FUCK.
i just can't deal with this right now....I am having a panic attack and I have a presentation for journalism, of all classes, at 8 in the morning. I need midterms to be over right now so I can stop, breakdown, and start again.
and lets not talk about boys. ever.
go away feel of impending doom!
merda.