I <3 Adam Brody
honestly..hes one of the most beautiful guys ive EVER seen
so its a nauseating and sinking feeling to come to sudden realizations. sinking and nauseating describe it perfectly. you literally feel your stomach and heart drop and then your stomach starts to swell, your chest gets hot as does your face. ive felt this way before, but never to this degree. like sarah mclachlan says: "hold on, hold on to yourself, for this is gonna hurt like hell". my roommates were great tonight, talking to them was very helpful. i will get through this...that which doesnt kill me makes me stronger. in the meantime....in the immortal words of evan bivins "a fantasy will do if reality is shy". reality is definately shy.
im going to see dad and hopefully he can find out whats wrong with me. my lymph nodes are still swollen but now they ache. at this point, nothing will surprise me.
i think one of my next entries is going to be my first friends only entry b/c theres some stuff i want to write about that i dont want outsiders reading. personal stuff that i doubt anyone gives a rats ass about anyway, but still...
i think the drugs are kicking in...thats my cue to try and fall asleep
someday i will find a love that flows through me like this, and this will fall away..this will fall away
so its a nauseating and sinking feeling to come to sudden realizations. sinking and nauseating describe it perfectly. you literally feel your stomach and heart drop and then your stomach starts to swell, your chest gets hot as does your face. ive felt this way before, but never to this degree. like sarah mclachlan says: "hold on, hold on to yourself, for this is gonna hurt like hell". my roommates were great tonight, talking to them was very helpful. i will get through this...that which doesnt kill me makes me stronger. in the meantime....in the immortal words of evan bivins "a fantasy will do if reality is shy". reality is definately shy.
im going to see dad and hopefully he can find out whats wrong with me. my lymph nodes are still swollen but now they ache. at this point, nothing will surprise me.
i think one of my next entries is going to be my first friends only entry b/c theres some stuff i want to write about that i dont want outsiders reading. personal stuff that i doubt anyone gives a rats ass about anyway, but still...
i think the drugs are kicking in...thats my cue to try and fall asleep
someday i will find a love that flows through me like this, and this will fall away..this will fall away