The Plan Moves Ever Forward
Some days I find myself greatly missing Brad. I suppose today is one of those days, as I realize I don't have anyone on campus to talk to or even gossip with. Brad was always a wellspring of information, and I suppose I miss that. And other things too, like how he would scratch my head and how cuddly he was, but that's beside the point. I miss him, and although I'm certain he's in Lexington, I still look around campus wondering (and even hoping) to see him round the corner. It's actually gotten quite bad, my pining; I've begun to lose interest in everything else, including school.
I dunno, this is weird. I've broken up with him twice, yet I still sometimes wish I could rush to Lexington like some Lifetime special and scoop him up again. But let's not delude ourselves. Something like that doesn't happen, and I know in my heart he'll become a better man someday, even if it's not my man. He's a tough guy.
So maybe it's the weather, and that's why I find myself thinking about him, but it's also given me course to evaluate my master plan, the one I mentioned briefly here. This really isn't something I wanted to do without Bradley, but I don't really have a choice anymore. I have to move forward.
Thing to note: I get paid this weekend! Which is awesome because I treated Alexander for his birthday and I have exactly $.01 in my checking account. Budgeting prowess at its best, I tell you. I can also buy food! Yay!
I have not been doing my homework, and I have a speech due that still has no topic. possibly because I don't care. Whatever. I'm sure I'll pull something great out of my ass eleventh hour. I just know that I shouldn't, and that's what bothers me. This funk isn't lifting. I blame this school. Perhaps Brad had the right idea; maybe a move is in order?
Except unlike him, I don't feel like I can do that. Not yet.
Later
I dunno, this is weird. I've broken up with him twice, yet I still sometimes wish I could rush to Lexington like some Lifetime special and scoop him up again. But let's not delude ourselves. Something like that doesn't happen, and I know in my heart he'll become a better man someday, even if it's not my man. He's a tough guy.
So maybe it's the weather, and that's why I find myself thinking about him, but it's also given me course to evaluate my master plan, the one I mentioned briefly here. This really isn't something I wanted to do without Bradley, but I don't really have a choice anymore. I have to move forward.
Thing to note: I get paid this weekend! Which is awesome because I treated Alexander for his birthday and I have exactly $.01 in my checking account. Budgeting prowess at its best, I tell you. I can also buy food! Yay!
I have not been doing my homework, and I have a speech due that still has no topic. possibly because I don't care. Whatever. I'm sure I'll pull something great out of my ass eleventh hour. I just know that I shouldn't, and that's what bothers me. This funk isn't lifting. I blame this school. Perhaps Brad had the right idea; maybe a move is in order?
Except unlike him, I don't feel like I can do that. Not yet.
Later