esau thomas baer price.
the things i miss about him.
his smile (nobody has seen his real smile except for me, according to him.)
his family.
his dog.
how he smells when i cuddle with him in bed
how he just touches my face
how cute he is when he laughs
how he holds my hand and is able to comfort me just by doing that
how he convinces me to do things i dont want to do
how we can share the same shoes without a problem
how he just smells after he gets out of the shower
how he shaves
how he fusses over his thick hair
how he picks at his goatee
the way he walks
how he smiles whenever i see him
how he makes me feel at ease whenever i talk to him on the vp or in person.
how he loves to watch movies with me
how he holds me in bed and just snuggles with me in a specific way that makes me feel all secure and warm.
how hot he gets in bed that i have to take the covers off to be able to cool off
how dorky he is when he is with me and my friends and his friends
how he treats me so well with his friends
how sweet he is when we go on dates
how mellow he is when i talk to him about a problem that has popped up in my life
how he has been there for me through thick and thin.
waking up to his smile in the morning
and many more.
to sum it up all. i do really love him still. its going to be a very long time before im able to move on. its so hard for me every single passing day, i think about him. i cry myself to sleep sometimes. i kick myself for hurting him and me at the end. I do want him back i do. this isnt a bounce back at all. im following what my heart is telling me. I do truly love him. I know he wont be the same boy i dated back in august of 06', but im willing ot take the risk again just to be with him.
his smile (nobody has seen his real smile except for me, according to him.)
his family.
his dog.
how he smells when i cuddle with him in bed
how he just touches my face
how cute he is when he laughs
how he holds my hand and is able to comfort me just by doing that
how he convinces me to do things i dont want to do
how we can share the same shoes without a problem
how he just smells after he gets out of the shower
how he shaves
how he fusses over his thick hair
how he picks at his goatee
the way he walks
how he smiles whenever i see him
how he makes me feel at ease whenever i talk to him on the vp or in person.
how he loves to watch movies with me
how he holds me in bed and just snuggles with me in a specific way that makes me feel all secure and warm.
how hot he gets in bed that i have to take the covers off to be able to cool off
how dorky he is when he is with me and my friends and his friends
how he treats me so well with his friends
how sweet he is when we go on dates
how mellow he is when i talk to him about a problem that has popped up in my life
how he has been there for me through thick and thin.
waking up to his smile in the morning
and many more.
to sum it up all. i do really love him still. its going to be a very long time before im able to move on. its so hard for me every single passing day, i think about him. i cry myself to sleep sometimes. i kick myself for hurting him and me at the end. I do want him back i do. this isnt a bounce back at all. im following what my heart is telling me. I do truly love him. I know he wont be the same boy i dated back in august of 06', but im willing ot take the risk again just to be with him.