How mundane, time for a change!
I realized today how boring and mundane my life really is. I mean other people go to cons, visit cool places, or just get out and meet people. I just kinda...don't do anything but sit in this chair, or occasionally hit Barnes & Nobel for some free in store read Manga time. I always figured that one day I'd be like, a good artist or good enough to hang with some more experienced folks and gain insight to the actual community, but this never occured.
Even after trying to just kill off the whiny(I WANNA BE A GOOD ARTIST NOW!!!11!) bullshit, I still find myself very much solo in this life. I got a few friends on AIM, but not enough to claim "oh yeah, I got it going on". I dunno, I just want to be involved in something bigger, or better then this current hump of nothing I got going on.
I think I'm gonna try to start over again, this time leaving a good chunk of my usual behavior behind me. I tend to harp and talk about the past, like an old person would talk about 10 feet of snow and having to traverse it when they were "my age". I gotta learn to grasp that my past is just that, the past. I doubt anyone really gives a flying fuck-a-nut about that, or my stories about the pro artists I met or got so called "Sage" like advice from. If it was so useful, why is it I only improved art-wise when I ditched the books and "acquired" learning then?
Even after trying to just kill off the whiny(I WANNA BE A GOOD ARTIST NOW!!!11!) bullshit, I still find myself very much solo in this life. I got a few friends on AIM, but not enough to claim "oh yeah, I got it going on". I dunno, I just want to be involved in something bigger, or better then this current hump of nothing I got going on.
I think I'm gonna try to start over again, this time leaving a good chunk of my usual behavior behind me. I tend to harp and talk about the past, like an old person would talk about 10 feet of snow and having to traverse it when they were "my age". I gotta learn to grasp that my past is just that, the past. I doubt anyone really gives a flying fuck-a-nut about that, or my stories about the pro artists I met or got so called "Sage" like advice from. If it was so useful, why is it I only improved art-wise when I ditched the books and "acquired" learning then?