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it's 3 in the morning and I cant go to sleep because I had way too much coffee earlier.
I decided to update this for the first time in months because all my friends are asleep.
There's really way too much to update, I think thats why I havent written anything, like it would just be too hard to get everything down that has happened to me. Ill just stick with tonight then.
I went out with Jake and we had a lot of fun, we met up with some kids at a random hardcore show that we didnt even know was going on until we got there. We had a lot of fun hanging out and stuff, but it ended a little too soon, I drove Jen home which was nice because I havent had a chance to really talk to her in like 2 years. There's a lot of people I haven't talked to in 2 years and I dont really know how I feel about that. Well I do know how I feel about it but I can't blame anyone but myself. It feels good to be living my own life again and meeting up with old friends and remembering what its like to go out and have stupid conversations when you're half asleep and drive through the middle of nowhere at ungodly hours. Im glad that things arent passing me by anymore. It's like the last two years I was riding on a train with no idea where it was going and no control over it whatsoever, just following the tracks and only being able to look out a little window. Now though I finally feel like I'm in control of my life, and although riding the train was easier, I'll feel like I've lived a more complete life this way.
I probably shouldn't update this thing when Im running solely on caffeine at an hour I usually never see, I feel like everything I wrote sounds pretty bleak.
I decided to update this for the first time in months because all my friends are asleep.
There's really way too much to update, I think thats why I havent written anything, like it would just be too hard to get everything down that has happened to me. Ill just stick with tonight then.
I went out with Jake and we had a lot of fun, we met up with some kids at a random hardcore show that we didnt even know was going on until we got there. We had a lot of fun hanging out and stuff, but it ended a little too soon, I drove Jen home which was nice because I havent had a chance to really talk to her in like 2 years. There's a lot of people I haven't talked to in 2 years and I dont really know how I feel about that. Well I do know how I feel about it but I can't blame anyone but myself. It feels good to be living my own life again and meeting up with old friends and remembering what its like to go out and have stupid conversations when you're half asleep and drive through the middle of nowhere at ungodly hours. Im glad that things arent passing me by anymore. It's like the last two years I was riding on a train with no idea where it was going and no control over it whatsoever, just following the tracks and only being able to look out a little window. Now though I finally feel like I'm in control of my life, and although riding the train was easier, I'll feel like I've lived a more complete life this way.
I probably shouldn't update this thing when Im running solely on caffeine at an hour I usually never see, I feel like everything I wrote sounds pretty bleak.