tears

[neofelis]

:(
oh my god
without someone to love
i waste away
how pathetic
whats wrong with me
i feel so unworthy of everything
i wish i wasnt breathing
all i want is to hide
but i'm afraid of being alone
i'm already alone
nothing matters
i keep telling myself i love myself
i dont even know myself
i dont like who i am
i'm a horrible person
i'm sorry
to everyone and everything
i'm sorry i exist
i say i'll try
but i dont know how
no one taught me how to live
i want out
i have forgotten how to speak
i have forgotten how to feel
or maybe i never knew
i'm so selfish
stay away
...

i can see the stars