In which I mature a little.
So the other day, my boyfriend broke the news to me that he might be helping with a conservation project. Cool right? Yeah, it is but... it's in Montana. And it starts this month if he gets selected. Needless to say I was totally the Nino of this pic:
Well, he sent in his resume, did an interview, and is waiting for the news. At first I was kind of upset. We had some things planned for the summer and he'd promised to go to my friend's wedding with me where I will now be the only bridesmaid who's alone. And now we can't do any of those things. So I was a bit mopey yesterday, even though I knew I was being selfish. It's something he wants to do and it's a really good cause that we both actually care about. But yeah, the selfishness.
I did a lot of thinking last night and when I woke up this morning, suddenly I wasn't upset anymore. It is only a few months after all. He visited me at work today and I told him that I want him to do it and that I hope he gets in, and I really do. At which point he was like "Well. Why don't you come with me to Montana?" I guess that really made me feel better or something. That he wants me to come with him.
And I realized that that's what was making me upset the entire time. I guess I was feeling like I was being abandoned.. or that I was something that he could leave and just come back to. People keep asking me all the time if he invites me to move around to whatever state he's going to and I guess always saying "no" hurts a bit. So it's good to feel like I mean something to him.
Well, I can't go with him anyway. I want to, but the specific program he's in is for veterans only. There are other programs nearby, but the conditions are really too much for me. You have to live in tents most of the time. When he told me, I was like "The where do you get interwebs?! D:" So I'll wait for him. And at least I know he'll have his foot in the door for forestry, which we both like quite a bit!
So being the romantic girl I am, I told him, "Just don't sleep with any prostitutes, okay?" And he replied "I couldn't afford them."
In other news, I started Proactiv a week ago and the difference is CRAZY already. The half of my face that wasn't as bad is almost completely clear, and the worse half is getting better everyday. So it seems I'm leaving acne behind! Now to work on the chub, haha.
Well, he sent in his resume, did an interview, and is waiting for the news. At first I was kind of upset. We had some things planned for the summer and he'd promised to go to my friend's wedding with me where I will now be the only bridesmaid who's alone. And now we can't do any of those things. So I was a bit mopey yesterday, even though I knew I was being selfish. It's something he wants to do and it's a really good cause that we both actually care about. But yeah, the selfishness.
I did a lot of thinking last night and when I woke up this morning, suddenly I wasn't upset anymore. It is only a few months after all. He visited me at work today and I told him that I want him to do it and that I hope he gets in, and I really do. At which point he was like "Well. Why don't you come with me to Montana?" I guess that really made me feel better or something. That he wants me to come with him.
And I realized that that's what was making me upset the entire time. I guess I was feeling like I was being abandoned.. or that I was something that he could leave and just come back to. People keep asking me all the time if he invites me to move around to whatever state he's going to and I guess always saying "no" hurts a bit. So it's good to feel like I mean something to him.
Well, I can't go with him anyway. I want to, but the specific program he's in is for veterans only. There are other programs nearby, but the conditions are really too much for me. You have to live in tents most of the time. When he told me, I was like "The where do you get interwebs?! D:" So I'll wait for him. And at least I know he'll have his foot in the door for forestry, which we both like quite a bit!
So being the romantic girl I am, I told him, "Just don't sleep with any prostitutes, okay?" And he replied "I couldn't afford them."
In other news, I started Proactiv a week ago and the difference is CRAZY already. The half of my face that wasn't as bad is almost completely clear, and the worse half is getting better everyday. So it seems I'm leaving acne behind! Now to work on the chub, haha.