ok ok, long but it might be worth it
well I have some time to kill before I go to bed, or Rachael comes on line, or something happens, I just got offline with everyone, they all just appeared, I signed on and out of no where, I have David, sale, randy, jerry, and Sara all start talking to me, I felt loved, lol, well enough of the girly ish. Lets see. I have a long way to go, as far as becoming a better, more user friendly person, but I know that no matter what happens in my life that the path I am taking will be the right one. Being a better person may have started as something I was doing to make things better in a relationship, but in a bout an hour I realized that it was for me and everyone else in my life, including her. I am glad things are going as well as they are, I am afraid I might bother Rachael sometimes, but I have a thick shell to break from and I am glad she is helping me along the way, I know that she has no idea how much she really is helping me and although sometimes it may hurt, I feel, even when its pain is the most severe, that this is for the best. I really do love her, for all that she’s worth, and I don’t think I have to remind anyone how much that is. I am very grateful for all she has taught me, and I am forever in her debt. I know that if being her friend eternally was what she wished then it would be the way, even if it hurt me, it would be the right thing, but I want her to see, how much better I can be and even though I lost focus for a while I can see clearer now then ever, even before it all. So no matter the fate that Rachael and I might face, I know that I will be by her side to help her, and I know she will be by mine to help me. Now that we are talking about appreciation thought I would go on to tell all the people in my life why I appreciate them first
Parents: although you might never read this I want them to know how much I love them and that I am grateful for all they have given me. Even though some times the way they express they care is not the same as I might perceive, I know they only mean for the best
Rachael’s friends: thanks for never leaving her and forever staying by her side, I know that if I had been a little less blind earlier I would have seen that you are very important, and that I will always see my self as under you. Thank you for helping her when she needed it the most, thank you for helping us, thank you for helping me.
Bill: for you I believe there are some very good reasons you are mentioned, you came to my aid when I needed, and you helped me along the way, through trial, and test, you are someone who I could not live without. Thank you
My Uncle herb and all Others with negative outlooks: I appreciate that you give me your two cents, and thanks for your opinions, and thanks for letting me make my own mistakes
now i know this sounds a little like an award speech, or a rambling drunk, but i am sincere, and definatly sober on all accounts, please forgive me for all my mistakes, and please call me if you need anything, everyone has given me so much, all i want to do is give something back.
Parents: although you might never read this I want them to know how much I love them and that I am grateful for all they have given me. Even though some times the way they express they care is not the same as I might perceive, I know they only mean for the best
Rachael’s friends: thanks for never leaving her and forever staying by her side, I know that if I had been a little less blind earlier I would have seen that you are very important, and that I will always see my self as under you. Thank you for helping her when she needed it the most, thank you for helping us, thank you for helping me.
Bill: for you I believe there are some very good reasons you are mentioned, you came to my aid when I needed, and you helped me along the way, through trial, and test, you are someone who I could not live without. Thank you
My Uncle herb and all Others with negative outlooks: I appreciate that you give me your two cents, and thanks for your opinions, and thanks for letting me make my own mistakes
now i know this sounds a little like an award speech, or a rambling drunk, but i am sincere, and definatly sober on all accounts, please forgive me for all my mistakes, and please call me if you need anything, everyone has given me so much, all i want to do is give something back.