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I can write pages and pages of stuff on a blog where any schlub can see, but I can't even string two sentences together in a personal statement for graduate schools. What's up with that?
The many deadlines that are coming up have kind of collected themselves into a singular, terrifying mass hanging in the back of my head. It's at that distance where it just provides a constant sense of discomfort and inevitability, but doesn't quite permit enough pressure to cause me to kick into as high of a gear as I'd like. I guess I'm a glutton for self-induced punishment... But at least the margin has widened a little bit? I'm a couple of weeks ahead of the massive doom, instead of a few days... I guess that counts for something.
Somewhere along the way, I got sucked into helping organize some of the grad student events in the department. I guess that's kind of funny... It just adds to the whole Pinocchio-esque notion that while I'm for all intents and purposes acting like a grad student, I'm not actually one, and I need to keep reminding myself that that's the case... So I need to keep grinding to make sure that there's no reason why the prof's can't just sign a sheet of paper to actually make it happen for real. Here's to hoping.
Also, Ayumi Hamasaki's "Marionette" is awesome.
The many deadlines that are coming up have kind of collected themselves into a singular, terrifying mass hanging in the back of my head. It's at that distance where it just provides a constant sense of discomfort and inevitability, but doesn't quite permit enough pressure to cause me to kick into as high of a gear as I'd like. I guess I'm a glutton for self-induced punishment... But at least the margin has widened a little bit? I'm a couple of weeks ahead of the massive doom, instead of a few days... I guess that counts for something.
Somewhere along the way, I got sucked into helping organize some of the grad student events in the department. I guess that's kind of funny... It just adds to the whole Pinocchio-esque notion that while I'm for all intents and purposes acting like a grad student, I'm not actually one, and I need to keep reminding myself that that's the case... So I need to keep grinding to make sure that there's no reason why the prof's can't just sign a sheet of paper to actually make it happen for real. Here's to hoping.
Also, Ayumi Hamasaki's "Marionette" is awesome.