It's been a while...
After months of just plain nothing, here I am again. hurrah!!!
I can say its been exciting during the past few months. It was like going through hell and back, and then over and beyond the sky.
I hope I can get high enough to reach the stars. Its merely an arm's length away, but I whouldn't like to merely grab on selfishly. I've done it before, and I just got myself burned. I failed because I was too inconsiderate to notice that it was not yet the time. I failed because of my impatience.
Now I know better.
It was a hard lesson to learn, but still a lesson worth learning.
I think failure only made me a better person.
It did. It really did.
It took a while, but I got back on my feet and started reaching up again.
I was guided by my determination to reconcile. Nothing else.
Gone was the mad fascination and illogical desire.
No longer was the moth entranced by the flame because it knew nothing of it.
The only thing in my mind was "I made the stars cry and so it lost its shine, dimming the world which appreciated her light. I've got to bring back the glow that I have stolen, so that again she could brighten everyone's world."
It took a long time, but still... I did it.
And now yet again I find myself in the position to reach the star I had admired wholeheartedly.
This time around, I will not make any stupid mistakes. Not again.
Someday, I'll try to hold that star again. But still, I'm content, for I know that because of the things I have done, she's brighter than before.
Heh... basta you can say that right now, I'm happy because she's happy because I'm happy because she's happy because I made her happy.
Basically ganun... and I hope na hindi na masira pa.
Pero, parang nakatulong rin talaga yung um... "tampuhan" period na nangyari dahil sa akin. In the end naman kasi, mas nakaliwanagan kaysa noong dati.
*sigh* Sana hindi na ulit kami magkaganoon. Ang hirap ng pakiramdam, sa bawat araw na nakikita ko siya alam kong may pinapanood akong naghihirap. At yung masaklap pa doon alam mo na ikaw yung rason. Ouch talaga! Buti naman at nakapagisip-isip ako na at least, AT LEAST, maging masaya siya ulit at gagawin ko ang lahat para magawa kahit ito lamang. Madami akong nagawa, at buti naman, naayos ko rin ang lahat.
Again I have a star to admire. And in knowing that she's shining for me and in part because of me, I can't help but feel joyful and content.
But I still have a wish for that star, and I hope it comes true.
I can say its been exciting during the past few months. It was like going through hell and back, and then over and beyond the sky.
I hope I can get high enough to reach the stars. Its merely an arm's length away, but I whouldn't like to merely grab on selfishly. I've done it before, and I just got myself burned. I failed because I was too inconsiderate to notice that it was not yet the time. I failed because of my impatience.
Now I know better.
It was a hard lesson to learn, but still a lesson worth learning.
I think failure only made me a better person.
It did. It really did.
It took a while, but I got back on my feet and started reaching up again.
I was guided by my determination to reconcile. Nothing else.
Gone was the mad fascination and illogical desire.
No longer was the moth entranced by the flame because it knew nothing of it.
The only thing in my mind was "I made the stars cry and so it lost its shine, dimming the world which appreciated her light. I've got to bring back the glow that I have stolen, so that again she could brighten everyone's world."
It took a long time, but still... I did it.
And now yet again I find myself in the position to reach the star I had admired wholeheartedly.
This time around, I will not make any stupid mistakes. Not again.
Someday, I'll try to hold that star again. But still, I'm content, for I know that because of the things I have done, she's brighter than before.
Heh... basta you can say that right now, I'm happy because she's happy because I'm happy because she's happy because I made her happy.
Basically ganun... and I hope na hindi na masira pa.
Pero, parang nakatulong rin talaga yung um... "tampuhan" period na nangyari dahil sa akin. In the end naman kasi, mas nakaliwanagan kaysa noong dati.
*sigh* Sana hindi na ulit kami magkaganoon. Ang hirap ng pakiramdam, sa bawat araw na nakikita ko siya alam kong may pinapanood akong naghihirap. At yung masaklap pa doon alam mo na ikaw yung rason. Ouch talaga! Buti naman at nakapagisip-isip ako na at least, AT LEAST, maging masaya siya ulit at gagawin ko ang lahat para magawa kahit ito lamang. Madami akong nagawa, at buti naman, naayos ko rin ang lahat.
Again I have a star to admire. And in knowing that she's shining for me and in part because of me, I can't help but feel joyful and content.
But I still have a wish for that star, and I hope it comes true.