A Beautiful Letdown, I am
Well I safely made it to New Jersey last night. I must say I miss being here. Its kind of a shame that almost all the snow is all melted. My brother looks at me weird when I decide to walk in the semi-dirty snowy slush, instead of on the clean dry pavement. But hey give me a break! Not like I get a chance to embrace snow back home in Bermuda. No doubt my parents are missing me right now. Heh heh. I'm at my brother's apartment at the moment. It has a very nice view. Plus I can't stop staring ay the squirrels that are playing on the leafless tree as I type. Niko (my brother) and I going to head out to New York in a few days. I'm not too sure what he has planned for me. I usually dislike those kinds of surprises because part of me thinks that he has no clue what we are going to do there either. lol. But I have faith in him; he never lets me down anyway.
As my title says, I feel like a letdown today. My friend was counting on me to buy a Nintendo Wii for him during my trip. He had given me the money to buy him his Wii, a game, an extra remote and duty. The thing, deep down, I felt so overwhelmed. I wanted to buy my own new system as well. But my dangerous habit of putting people's personal needs in front of my own ALMOST kicked in. Lucky for me, my parents stepped in and told me that I couldn't take his to buy his system. Mainly because this is my first time traveling alone (sad, I know) and they would prefer I just worry about my own money and needs for this trip. So I feel so relieved in the inside, no doubt. But I started to argue with my parents anyway, trying hard to persuade them to let me take his money and buy my friend's Wii for him. Of course the argument was over before it even started it! It was two on one, I didn't stand a chance. I could tell my parents were in no mood for debates. So my father merely went to his room and slept, and allowed my mother to finish it. Then my mother delivered those three words that can end any argument. "I have spoken"
The hardest part was calling my excited friend and tells him that I couldn't buy his Wii for him. When he came back to my house to pick up his money he seemed ok, and told me no worries. Despite that I could still sense the "disappointment" in his eyes. And that's the one thing I hate more then anything, even more then failure. And that's being a letdown. Not to myself, but to other people. *sighs* But deep down…I’m glad my parents intervened. I owe them one…
As my title says, I feel like a letdown today. My friend was counting on me to buy a Nintendo Wii for him during my trip. He had given me the money to buy him his Wii, a game, an extra remote and duty. The thing, deep down, I felt so overwhelmed. I wanted to buy my own new system as well. But my dangerous habit of putting people's personal needs in front of my own ALMOST kicked in. Lucky for me, my parents stepped in and told me that I couldn't take his to buy his system. Mainly because this is my first time traveling alone (sad, I know) and they would prefer I just worry about my own money and needs for this trip. So I feel so relieved in the inside, no doubt. But I started to argue with my parents anyway, trying hard to persuade them to let me take his money and buy my friend's Wii for him. Of course the argument was over before it even started it! It was two on one, I didn't stand a chance. I could tell my parents were in no mood for debates. So my father merely went to his room and slept, and allowed my mother to finish it. Then my mother delivered those three words that can end any argument. "I have spoken"
The hardest part was calling my excited friend and tells him that I couldn't buy his Wii for him. When he came back to my house to pick up his money he seemed ok, and told me no worries. Despite that I could still sense the "disappointment" in his eyes. And that's the one thing I hate more then anything, even more then failure. And that's being a letdown. Not to myself, but to other people. *sighs* But deep down…I’m glad my parents intervened. I owe them one…