If You Only Knew
The tragic story of BJ and I must has been told to so many people. I must have received 10 phone calls, 4 messages, and 3 emails all within Friday, Saturday and Sunday, all regarding our so-called "meaningless breakup." I have no idea why I am so shocked. I told allot of my friends, so it was only a matter of time before I received their honest opinion about it. More then half of them believe that I shouldn't have thrown it away because of a friend. They all know that BJ is willing to give it another shot...but am I? Well first of all I'll have to listen to all of those who told me that "if Rakai is truly one of my best friends...then he should respect my feelings and not take our relationship so serious. Ironically I am over the whole friendship in jeopardy thing. I'm more concerned about my own feelings.
If you only knew how empty Miguel is feeling right now. BJ isn't really pressuring me to unite with her in a relationship again. Its worse...she tells me that "it’s totally up to me." How that is supposed to make me feel? Does she really mean that? Maybe she doesn't even care, and just wants a boyfriend because she cannot stand being single. Or maybe she knows that I'll come crawling back to her. No...she isn't like that. But I have to be sure if she is really serious about starting over. I have to admit it would be nice. That's why I asked her out on a date this Friday. I already made the reservations at one of the best restaurants here. They have the best Italian food. Wish me luck...
Emotions...why are they so complicated? *sighs*
BJ: “I’ll be wanting you…waiting for you…loving you….if you only knew.”
If you only knew how empty Miguel is feeling right now. BJ isn't really pressuring me to unite with her in a relationship again. Its worse...she tells me that "it’s totally up to me." How that is supposed to make me feel? Does she really mean that? Maybe she doesn't even care, and just wants a boyfriend because she cannot stand being single. Or maybe she knows that I'll come crawling back to her. No...she isn't like that. But I have to be sure if she is really serious about starting over. I have to admit it would be nice. That's why I asked her out on a date this Friday. I already made the reservations at one of the best restaurants here. They have the best Italian food. Wish me luck...
Emotions...why are they so complicated? *sighs*
BJ: “I’ll be wanting you…waiting for you…loving you….if you only knew.”