Cruel Intentions
I must say, I was expecting new surprises from this New Year, but not like this. I don't know if it is me, but my life has all of a sudden become some kind of comedy/romance movie, lol. Anyway, you might recall from my last entry that I once began to like this girl by the name of Serena and as I was about to kiss her, but my friend Justin interfered. For the past few days I thought he stopped me because of bad timing, and it was a mere accident. The truth is...he done it on purpose. Now I know most of you are thinking what a ass to do that to a friend, but surprisingly he had his reasons. Of course I didn't feel this way when he first admitted it; in fact I was so furious. He tried telling me that Serena was a dirty slut that is guilty of doing sexual things with countless guys. At first I didn't believe him...then I remembered the comment Filipe made on my last entry. So I decided to take care of Justin later and have a talk with Filipe. To my surprise Filipe told me the same story as told by Justin. So you know I felt like the scum of the earth. But I am so relieved that I didn't kiss her, never will I even dream of doing that with her. I was such in a rush of no longer being single, I totally overlooked this person's history, and never again will I make that mistake.
Both Filipe and Justin saved me from making the worst choice of my life. But it is hard to believe some of the claims your friends make when it comes to love. When they try to tell us the truth, we immediately develop the cruel illusion that they are merely trying to take away the one we care about. As for Serena, I no longer have any feelings for her. Trust me, the claims Justin and Filipe make about her are indeed true. You see back in my first year of high school, there was a case where this high school girl was sucking the dicks of 10+ boys in the school bathroom. What I don't understand is why I didn't recognize this girl from before; I mean we both went the same high school at one point. Then again, I wasn't very talky in my first year of high school, just your average nobody back then. What I am about to say might sound a bit strange, but what if God was trying to teach me how dangerous some relationships can be and that I am far from ready for one. I mean I nearly dated somebody who slept with God knows who. I'm just glad I have some awesome friends who are looking out for me. Serena doesn't know that I know who she really is, so I'll tell her why I refuse to date her now. But before I deal with her, I had to say sorry to Justin. To bad when I went to apologize to him, I would receive the shock of my life...
I made my way back home and signed on msn, hoping Justin would be online so I can apologize to him. Lucky for me he was...
Me: Hey Justin, sorry I didn't believe you about Serena. :(
Justin: It's ok Miguel, love is blind.
Me: Lol, tell me about it.
Justin: But there is something you must know...I kept it in for so long, and it's driving me crazy.
Me: What is it?
Justin: I'm gay.
Me: Yeah, right. Seriously, what is it?
Justin: Seriously I am! You were my best friend back in primary school, and I felt you had the right to know.
Me: Well, I guess I will just have to except who you are. I'm not God; I have no right to judge you because you like guys. But don't think for a second you can hit on me, because I will not hesitate to block you.
Justin: There's more...I've been with a few guys...and I enjoyed the sex.
*Miggz may not reply because he appears to be offline.*
I just had to leave, that was enough drama for one day. I do not hate Justin; I just needed a moment of the computer for a while. I'm still his friend and all, and I have a few other gay friends...it's just so much to take in. I got over Serena, that was ok...but he chose the wrong time to admit that he is gay. I just wasn't in any mood to deal with him. I'll have another talk with him in the future, when I am ready. As long as he respects the fact that I am for girls only, then we shall get along fine. There is something I must realize. I am very attractive, I kept pretending as if I am not...but I am. I'll have to get over the fact that some of my male friends admire me for my looks, but if any of them admit it...I'll have to tell them straight, I feel nothing for them. Man, what a way to start April. One thing is for sure...this saga is far from done.
Both Filipe and Justin saved me from making the worst choice of my life. But it is hard to believe some of the claims your friends make when it comes to love. When they try to tell us the truth, we immediately develop the cruel illusion that they are merely trying to take away the one we care about. As for Serena, I no longer have any feelings for her. Trust me, the claims Justin and Filipe make about her are indeed true. You see back in my first year of high school, there was a case where this high school girl was sucking the dicks of 10+ boys in the school bathroom. What I don't understand is why I didn't recognize this girl from before; I mean we both went the same high school at one point. Then again, I wasn't very talky in my first year of high school, just your average nobody back then. What I am about to say might sound a bit strange, but what if God was trying to teach me how dangerous some relationships can be and that I am far from ready for one. I mean I nearly dated somebody who slept with God knows who. I'm just glad I have some awesome friends who are looking out for me. Serena doesn't know that I know who she really is, so I'll tell her why I refuse to date her now. But before I deal with her, I had to say sorry to Justin. To bad when I went to apologize to him, I would receive the shock of my life...
I made my way back home and signed on msn, hoping Justin would be online so I can apologize to him. Lucky for me he was...
Me: Hey Justin, sorry I didn't believe you about Serena. :(
Justin: It's ok Miguel, love is blind.
Me: Lol, tell me about it.
Justin: But there is something you must know...I kept it in for so long, and it's driving me crazy.
Me: What is it?
Justin: I'm gay.
Me: Yeah, right. Seriously, what is it?
Justin: Seriously I am! You were my best friend back in primary school, and I felt you had the right to know.
Me: Well, I guess I will just have to except who you are. I'm not God; I have no right to judge you because you like guys. But don't think for a second you can hit on me, because I will not hesitate to block you.
Justin: There's more...I've been with a few guys...and I enjoyed the sex.
*Miggz may not reply because he appears to be offline.*
I just had to leave, that was enough drama for one day. I do not hate Justin; I just needed a moment of the computer for a while. I'm still his friend and all, and I have a few other gay friends...it's just so much to take in. I got over Serena, that was ok...but he chose the wrong time to admit that he is gay. I just wasn't in any mood to deal with him. I'll have another talk with him in the future, when I am ready. As long as he respects the fact that I am for girls only, then we shall get along fine. There is something I must realize. I am very attractive, I kept pretending as if I am not...but I am. I'll have to get over the fact that some of my male friends admire me for my looks, but if any of them admit it...I'll have to tell them straight, I feel nothing for them. Man, what a way to start April. One thing is for sure...this saga is far from done.