Hollowstoned At Work
Okay so the new job has been okay thus far. By no means is the job perfect and there's a lot of corporate shenanigans and tomfoolery that makes it clear that they follow the business module of today's icon.
But all things considered, a vast improvement over the previous job. In the few months I've been there, I've already established myself as one of the top performers. Because you know yours truly is all about maintaining that alpha status.
My co-workers are very friendly and very fun.
And there's a really hot manager who walks past my desk several times a day while running errands. Muscular, fratboy Abercrombie type. I have to slink down in my chair and hide my face behind the monitor, less I risk him seeing the sappy grin on my face.
Something tells me, he's going to figure it out.
Speaking of which, it has started again. The females have been flirting something fierce. And to date, I've received two unsolicited neck and shoulder massages from said co-workers. Granted both ladies are attractive and that's always a boost to the self-esteem, but before they begin thinking I'm available and start registering us at Bloomingdale's I'm thinking I might need to shut that down right now.
I've been debating whether or not to come out at work. And this might be just as good a reason as any to do it. While one or two people know about me (one has quit and the other who sat next to me in our training class is a lesbian), most people don't. What was kinda cool was that in our training class, we had 4 queer people in a class of 17. That's kinda awesome. Of course, there's the reality that would follow.
Right now, people go out of their way to greet me. Supervisors applaud me for the excellent work. Co-workers and peers invite me to come hang out with them after work. I’m considered one of the boys. Not only am I respected but I’m actually liked as a human being. Women shamelessly flirt with me and colleagues male and female alike try to hook me up with a single lady in their life because I’m such a wonderful guy.
And if and when they find out I’m gay……I'll get the silence. And the looks, the glares. The whispers. I'll also have to worry about whether or not I could be shooting myself in the foot for any potential promotion. Then there's the constantly having to look over my shoulder when walking to the parking lot. And yet, it would be kinda nice to be open and part of me wouldn't be considering it if I didn't think it might be safe. But this is a serious choice.
Decisions, decisions.
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Oh and in other news, Hollowstone has been a huge hit at work which is really awesome seeing as I have done very little to promote or discuss the novel. When I first began at the Office, I didn't discuss Hollowstone because I didn't want to give off the impression that I wasn't focused on the job or I was being vain or whatnot but I had mentioned the novel in passing.
Several folks were impressed that they had a real live published author for a co-worker. One day my supervisor grabbed a copy of my novel from my desk to take to her meeting to show off to the other supervisors and upper brass that someone on her team was an accomplished author.
Many folks have bought the novel and I've had the pleasure of signing them which is pretty awesome and humbling.
My last few meetings with my supervisor has gone something like this.
Supervisor: Okay Denny, we're going to discuss your performance evaluation in just a moment but first there's something important I need to discuss with you. Hollowstone! OMG! You have got to tell me about Cal's origins. What's going to happen? I'm in the second part of the book and it's just getting crazy.
Neo: Don't worry business is about to pick up. After all, it's all connected.
Times like this, to quote my girl Maryse, even if I wasn't Neo_Prodigy, I'd wish I was.