questions form anngwish42
This has been going around for a little while, figured i'd give it a shot:
The Interview Meme: Rules
1. Leave a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
2. I'll reply and give you five questions to answer.
3. You'll update your LJ with the five questions answered.
4. You'll include this explanation.
5. You ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed. And it just keeps going, and going, and going
1. How often does the accident haunt your dreams?
Actually, it really doesn't consciously affect me much anymore. I think my approach to the whole thing may actually be offensive to some people. I tend to take the bad things in life and let them just roll off my back. Unfortunately, that tends to make people view me a cold and callous. I do not and have never claimed to have been as close to John as most were, which also may help me when dealing with the whole thing. IMHO, it's not that John wasn't a great guy, but I think he would have wanted to been remembered as just another face in the crowd. He was the type of person with the humility to say he wasn't anything special, though to many he was. I mean, I think about it from time to time, and to say it doesn't affect me would be a bold face lie. But, the effects are more in my approach to life now as compared to before.
2. Do you actually enjoy pain in the same
ooo-that-gets-me-hot way
that, say, I and Banshee do, or do you just get a kick out of how
impressed people are by your high tolerance?
There ia a level of "erotic" satisfaction with it, not really enough to get me, as you so eloquently put it, hot, per se. If it were to get me that way, it wouldn't be the pain as much as the person inflicting the pain (i mean, if a guy has a hot chick all over him, it's really "stimulating":p). It is defintely more in the range of the "respect" of having such a high pain threshold, though.
3. You're a smart guy, so why do you think you sabotage yourself so
often?
I still have trouble with that one. i think there are two reasons for it. First off, I have always worked better under pressure. Hell,I wrote a 20-page term paper my senior year in high school in less than two days. The other reason, I believe, is that i get bored easily, so i feel i need to do something to make life a little more of a challenge when things seem to be too easy.
4. Assuming you had a more stable living/financial situation, would you
ever want to split custody 50/50 with S. or even take on
primary-caregiver duties?
I would love to. I was actually talking to a few people about this recently. If I were a little more financially stable (i.e. had a good job, or in a fantasy world, the band took off like a rocket) i would love to have my daughter as much as I possibly could. Unfortunately, that really isn't an option right now. I understand that sounds really dumb after the answer i gave in the last question, but i guess that is one of those things i need to figure out. But to set the record straight, I do care about my daughter, I talk to S. all the time about her and the goings on in her life, and I am making a concerted effort to stabilize my life so that i can enjoy fatherhood. Although the latter seems to pose a real problem to me as of late....
5. I know the general reason (I was there to see how frustrating it was),
but what was the trigger that caused you to leave your most recent job?
I will make this as short and sweet as possible. Full page scripts take more than 20 seconds to read off. If a certain individual wants to reach more people, he shouldn't stress the "importance" of his oh-so-precious phone script. read into that what you will. As far as my own mental state right now, there is this nagging little voice that has developed since the accident telling me that life is too short to work a day job. I really don't understand why I listen to it, all I'm really doing is fucking my own life up...
The Interview Meme: Rules
1. Leave a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
2. I'll reply and give you five questions to answer.
3. You'll update your LJ with the five questions answered.
4. You'll include this explanation.
5. You ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed. And it just keeps going, and going, and going
1. How often does the accident haunt your dreams?
Actually, it really doesn't consciously affect me much anymore. I think my approach to the whole thing may actually be offensive to some people. I tend to take the bad things in life and let them just roll off my back. Unfortunately, that tends to make people view me a cold and callous. I do not and have never claimed to have been as close to John as most were, which also may help me when dealing with the whole thing. IMHO, it's not that John wasn't a great guy, but I think he would have wanted to been remembered as just another face in the crowd. He was the type of person with the humility to say he wasn't anything special, though to many he was. I mean, I think about it from time to time, and to say it doesn't affect me would be a bold face lie. But, the effects are more in my approach to life now as compared to before.
2. Do you actually enjoy pain in the same
ooo-that-gets-me-hot way
that, say, I and Banshee do, or do you just get a kick out of how
impressed people are by your high tolerance?
There ia a level of "erotic" satisfaction with it, not really enough to get me, as you so eloquently put it, hot, per se. If it were to get me that way, it wouldn't be the pain as much as the person inflicting the pain (i mean, if a guy has a hot chick all over him, it's really "stimulating":p). It is defintely more in the range of the "respect" of having such a high pain threshold, though.
3. You're a smart guy, so why do you think you sabotage yourself so
often?
I still have trouble with that one. i think there are two reasons for it. First off, I have always worked better under pressure. Hell,I wrote a 20-page term paper my senior year in high school in less than two days. The other reason, I believe, is that i get bored easily, so i feel i need to do something to make life a little more of a challenge when things seem to be too easy.
4. Assuming you had a more stable living/financial situation, would you
ever want to split custody 50/50 with S. or even take on
primary-caregiver duties?
I would love to. I was actually talking to a few people about this recently. If I were a little more financially stable (i.e. had a good job, or in a fantasy world, the band took off like a rocket) i would love to have my daughter as much as I possibly could. Unfortunately, that really isn't an option right now. I understand that sounds really dumb after the answer i gave in the last question, but i guess that is one of those things i need to figure out. But to set the record straight, I do care about my daughter, I talk to S. all the time about her and the goings on in her life, and I am making a concerted effort to stabilize my life so that i can enjoy fatherhood. Although the latter seems to pose a real problem to me as of late....
5. I know the general reason (I was there to see how frustrating it was),
but what was the trigger that caused you to leave your most recent job?
I will make this as short and sweet as possible. Full page scripts take more than 20 seconds to read off. If a certain individual wants to reach more people, he shouldn't stress the "importance" of his oh-so-precious phone script. read into that what you will. As far as my own mental state right now, there is this nagging little voice that has developed since the accident telling me that life is too short to work a day job. I really don't understand why I listen to it, all I'm really doing is fucking my own life up...