Oct 11, 2006 00:11
I am happy that you are his friend. I am glad that he has someone who is sticking up for him, because he chooses not to do it himself.
And while I understand how you may think that this is hurting everyone involved in this, I have to disagree.
You're telling me now I just have to be quiet? You're doing exactly what made me angry in the first place. I just have to shut my feelings off, and I'm not allowed to be who I am? I do not appreciate being oppressed. (Of course Pooh will always be allowed to do whatever he feels like to you, he is your friend. There is no denying that.)
It has been made very clear to me that I will never be able to have the same level of intimacy with pooh as some of his other friends (I.E. piglet). That is fine, I can understand that and I accepted that. IT KILLS ME THAT AT THE SAME TIME I WAS SUPPOSED TO ACCEPT THE SAME GUIDELINES, AND CONDITIONS OF A FRIENDSHIP WITH POOH. If I was getting the same rewards, I could understand. But there is a clear irrationality that pooh refuses to achknowledge. That I am just lumped with his good friends, and just have to accept his bullshit. I accepted in trying to be his friend after we broke up, only on the grounds of a tentive relationship. I will not be shit on.
Bottomline: He says that we are not friends anymore, I told him that I will always be willing to talk. Even if I storm off, I will always be willing to talk. I value the relationship I have with a person above all else, above logic and above contradiction. The only thing I wish is for the other person to be able to change my views as well as their ablitity for their views to be changed. IT CANNOT BE A ONE WAY STREET
But if you cannot give me a reason for sticking around, A reason like: I enjoy your company. What am I supposed to think? Oh ya, you're too passive to just say, "I don't want to be your friend." For all intents and purposes, I now know Pooh rejected me well before we broke up. He is just too fucking chicken shit to say it. That I think is a far worse crime than me bitching about it on my LJ. EDIT: Oh ya, because who is deathly scared of being rejected. Hmm, who could that be? Fuck you!
My LJ is my lj, if you don't like what you read than you don't have to read it; so says the all mighty and powerful pooh. So, piglet if you have a problem with my stance, than you can take it up with him /shrug. Because I tried changing for him, and look where it got me.