Fog
The post I made in October is like the first post I've actually been able to look back and be able to rethink. Usually, I make a post and its just something bullshit that just needs to leave my head and never return. But the one about the debrief spin actually kind of helps to re-read for me.
I've been trying to really get clear the last 6 months, and its really sucked.
No medicating and a lot of reflection, i don't advise it.
First thing I've learned is that I don't breath nearly as much as I should. I just forget to breath and I think that's been a big part of the headaches i've had over the last two years. To remind folks, started when I took my last course before I graduated. Doing a thesis is also something I don't advise.
Second I work myself up about bullshit that doesn't even need to be said. I was talking with gina last night about something I told a women earlier that day. She said that life is suffering and if you really run with it, you're just going to run all the way to bottom of a bottle. There is a lot more there but that's all I can really say for sure; shit sucks and I spend too much of my time building that up into something when its just nothing.
Last thing is that I just hate to deal with people. Which is different than I can't deal with people. I suppose that is a good difference...
I've been trying to really get clear the last 6 months, and its really sucked.
No medicating and a lot of reflection, i don't advise it.
First thing I've learned is that I don't breath nearly as much as I should. I just forget to breath and I think that's been a big part of the headaches i've had over the last two years. To remind folks, started when I took my last course before I graduated. Doing a thesis is also something I don't advise.
Second I work myself up about bullshit that doesn't even need to be said. I was talking with gina last night about something I told a women earlier that day. She said that life is suffering and if you really run with it, you're just going to run all the way to bottom of a bottle. There is a lot more there but that's all I can really say for sure; shit sucks and I spend too much of my time building that up into something when its just nothing.
Last thing is that I just hate to deal with people. Which is different than I can't deal with people. I suppose that is a good difference...