So I figured it out
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Malignant_narcissism
Ya this completely explains my relationship history. Every guy I've dated has had some form of malignant narcissism. And if this isn't it, I think I at least understand some of the reasons why I date the guys that I date.
What does that mean you ask?
Every guy I've dated I always had a suspicion that deep down they were good guys but their problem was that they were held captive by their own fear failing. "A" couldn't move beyond Magic: The Gathering. "B: couldn't bring himself to do anything that his looks couldn't make incredibly easy. And "C" dropped out of school and works in a dead-end retirement home for the poor. This is a great feat mind you but the trouble resides in his inability to get see his life without his work. All of them failed out of school. All of them had crazy insecurities about sex. All of them treated me like a prince and at the same time a whore.
When it was good, it was good.
A and C both had a few episodes of "Narcissistic Rage." And B was just passive aggressive as all get out.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_rage
I'm rambling but I'm just fascinated with finally having a glimpse of understanding to this creepy backdrop in my romantic life, also a small foothold into my dad's own weirdness.
To be someone's everything is really addictive.
Ya this completely explains my relationship history. Every guy I've dated has had some form of malignant narcissism. And if this isn't it, I think I at least understand some of the reasons why I date the guys that I date.
What does that mean you ask?
Every guy I've dated I always had a suspicion that deep down they were good guys but their problem was that they were held captive by their own fear failing. "A" couldn't move beyond Magic: The Gathering. "B: couldn't bring himself to do anything that his looks couldn't make incredibly easy. And "C" dropped out of school and works in a dead-end retirement home for the poor. This is a great feat mind you but the trouble resides in his inability to get see his life without his work. All of them failed out of school. All of them had crazy insecurities about sex. All of them treated me like a prince and at the same time a whore.
When it was good, it was good.
A and C both had a few episodes of "Narcissistic Rage." And B was just passive aggressive as all get out.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_rage
I'm rambling but I'm just fascinated with finally having a glimpse of understanding to this creepy backdrop in my romantic life, also a small foothold into my dad's own weirdness.
To be someone's everything is really addictive.