6/11/09 - Changes
I feel like my personality is changing very rapidly lately. It is almost hard to stay on top of it, I barely know who I am anymore. The changes dont seem to be bad, they actually seem like they are all good.
Last night felt like a turning point, the point where I could feel the demons inside me lashing out trying to get me to do something and still being able to resist. It feels like a big win. If I can do it once I can continue to do it. I can heed me own advice, i dont need anything to alter my mind.
I still need to learn more focus though, it is the greatest challenge in my life. I have never gotten a hang of it. I feel like once I learn how to focus my mind and buckle down on life I will accomplish great things.
Last night felt like a turning point, the point where I could feel the demons inside me lashing out trying to get me to do something and still being able to resist. It feels like a big win. If I can do it once I can continue to do it. I can heed me own advice, i dont need anything to alter my mind.
I still need to learn more focus though, it is the greatest challenge in my life. I have never gotten a hang of it. I feel like once I learn how to focus my mind and buckle down on life I will accomplish great things.