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neo_beethoven

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Feb 25, 2009 00:57

( When I look inside myself I see )

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basement_rerun February 25 2009, 16:54:58 UTC

Um?

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 16:56:28 UTC

What?

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 16:57:28 UTC

Nothing, I just... um...?

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:00:43 UTC

You think it's weird.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 17:02:19 UTC

No, I just- I'd rather you not look quite like that...

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:06:04 UTC

There is absolutely nothing wrong with Beethoven.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 17:07:09 UTC

I never said there was, I just...

I like you the way you are, Schro.

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:10:52 UTC

Oh.

You do realize that I don't really look like that, yes? This exercise is about who we are or have the potential to be in a broad, vague sense.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 17:15:59 UTC

Well, I realize that, yeah. I've seen you before.

Do you want to be a classical pianist then?

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:25:06 UTC

While that would be lovely, that's not what I meant either. I want to compose and be in the midst of an orchestra playing my symphonies, conducting them as music composed by my own hand fills the hall.

It's stupid, wishful thinking, but I know I have the capacity for it.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 17:29:08 UTC

Why is that stupid? If that's what you want to do, then go for it. I definitely think that you can do it.

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:31:20 UTC

Nobody cares for that kind of music anymore unless you compose film scores. I work at a gas station.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 17:40:38 UTC

Since when have you cared about what other people think or care about? Make them care.

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 17:47:13 UTC

It's not about what someone thinks of me. I'm being realistic. It is a small job market to begin with that only a tiny margin of people manage to thrive in. And with the economy being what it is, people aren't likely to spend money on the arts. I can't change the nature of employment.

basement_rerun February 25 2009, 18:34:13 UTC

That shouldn't stop you from at least trying. I mean, maybe you could get your foot in the door with your band, and then just... merge into composing.

People actually spend more money on interests and entertainment when the economy is poor, so you do stand a chance.

neo_beethoven February 25 2009, 18:44:27 UTC

If, and it's a big if, I got in the door with my band, I would probably stay with the band. You have more artistic license when people like what you're doing.

That's true. I just don't want to have my head in the clouds.

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