The Soulmate 6
- it counted 5.635 words. So if you found it too long, prepare your self...^^
- i was inspired by Bruno Mars song "Talking To The Moon", if you listen to the song while you read this. You'll understand how Jinki's sadness were driving away his sanity.i was borrowed Jasmine name on this story. Jasmine is my pretty niece, i ever put her picture as my journal avatar. i hopes she will grow healthy, wealthy and happy.
- i'm so sorry about the chapters, i thought i could finish it in 6 chapters, but i was wrong. so i will write one more chapter as a finishing story.
- i'm sorry again about my lack update. i was facing my final examinations. it will held for 3 weeks, and my examinations schedule were rare as hell. i got on Tuesday for the first lesson, and i will meet the next lesson at Tuesday too but in the next week.
- so enjoy bb...i love you....
Gwiboon and Taemin held the fireworks further away from their face. Taemin was so excited waiting for the fireball sliding to the sky and exploding with a beautiful color while Gwiboon spooked and jumped out every time the fireball explodes with the thumps noise.
Her matched scarf and mittens was eye catching, they are Jinki’s New Year gift. Its Yuri unreceived Christmas gift. He remembers that Gwiboon was pouted jealousy when Jinki told her about the story behind the gift. She grabs the gift and opens it. She throws the wrapped paper on the corner of Jinki’s flat.
“So I will take it for my New Year present, you don’t have to buy me present, I want to erase the bad memories on this present, and it’s pink, my favorite color,” Gwiboon said. Jinki is laughing and pinching Gwiboon’s cheek. It happened when the Christmas eve in front of the fire place.
The New Year event was the most beautiful event for their friendship. The boundaries between them were tightening and finally they could get along so well. Taemin was found the very fun conditions among his hyung. The elder seems so in love with the maknae, especially Gwiboon.
Jinki gazes adorably to his lover. He won’t forget that time, the time he saw Gwiboon happy and cheerful face running around the very cold beach with bare foot. Even Minho was enjoying the moment with Jinki. They sat at the abandoned big stone and paid attention to their silly and childish friends firing the fireworks.
The sky was very bright with many fireworks exploded without ending. Sometimes Jinki helps Gwiboon to firing the big fireworks. Her hair will flip because the wind blows. Her long and round fingers wrapped at the bottom of fireworks and pointed the tip to the sky. Jinki will giggle once he saw Gwiboon spooked face.
“Hey, let’s continue the barbeque here,” Seunghyun pushed the barbeque set closer to them. They were eating and fooling around in cold sands, but didn’t know why, it feels so warm in their bare foot.
They were lying on the sands to release the satisfied feelings and full stomach. The chill winds blow them, made Taemin shuddered and move closer to Jonghoon who suddenly wrap the younger with his warmth. Jonghoon seems so in love with the maknae. Minho trying to avoid his jealousy.
Jinki saw Gwiboon nose is red because of freezing wind. He pulled the girl closer to his body and embraced her. He feels Gwiboon’s hair is brushing his cheek. They sat comfortably while listens the fireworks and the sound of wave.
“Jinki, I wish you wouldn't forget about me, forever,” Gwiboon whispered.
Jinki is freezing. It’s like that Gwiboon whispered him a farewell. His heart was stung by the pain.
“No. Geudaneul saranghaeyo, darling,” Jinki whispered softly in Gwiboon’s ear. He really means it. Gwiboon is the first girlfriend in his life. Jinki saw her teary eyes. He tightens the embrace wish that it would reduce whatever things were bugging in her heart.
“Yeobo, what happened?” Jinki asked.
“Shoosh, Jinki. Just enjoy this time,” Gwiboon gripped Jinki’s hand.
They were fall into the sacred silent.
***.
Jinki sticks his cell phone on his left ear impatiently. He throws a death glare to Nicole and Yuri who were spooked. Jinki moves the cell phone on his right ear. His tensed expression is breaking with disappointment. He closed the phone’s flip harshly.
“WHAT SHOULD I DO NOW?!” Jinki shouted.
Seunghyun is patting Jinki’s back. They fall into sadness. Gwiboon was leaving them without notifications. They were confused and still trying to find the girl.
It’s been a week that Gwiboon was missing. Jinki was doing everything to find his lover. He was calling Gwiboon’s phone and find it abandoned on her bed. He called all the contacts on Gwiboon’s phone, no one’s knows about Gwiboon.
Minho helps him with reached all the person that will give them about Gwiboon, but still no news about her.
Jinki was found that Gwiboon didn’t bring anything in her room. Her stuffs still arrange neatly in the place. He didn’t know so much about Gwiboon’s clothes, but he still recognized every clothes that Gwiboon has wore. They still folded so neat inside the cupboard.
Jinki comes to the police stations every day to find about Gwiboon. He sits like a stone, hopes that he will find Gwiboon’s news. But he found nothing.
Jinki buried his face to the Gwiboon’s pillow. Once her lover scents spreads into his nostril, Jinki will cry so bad until he feel so exhausted.
Nicole bit her lower lip. She stares at Jonghyun who reply the sight confusedly. They were holding their words because they already made promises to Gwiboon.
***.
“Ms. Kim, it’s your turn, please change your clothes with the blue one,” The nurse said politely.
Gwiboon nodded. Nurse leaves her to exchange room. Gwiboon starts to remove her clothes and put the blue hospital gown on her slim body. She sighed. Gwiboon wish that her result after the general checkup is bring her good news.
She already experienced the pain before, now she got to gain more braveness to have the treatment. She throws her goods to the locker and locks it. She walks outside the exchanging room. Nicole was waiting for her.
“Are you ready?” Nicole asked.
“More than ready, I got to finish this hell here,” Gwiboon pointed her breast.
Nicole eyes were teary. She was really scared to lose her best friend. Gwiboon eyes were softening. They were hugging.
“Hey, I will be okay. No matter will happen, I got to do everything for being 100% cured,” Gwiboon wiped Nicole’s tears.
“Ms.Kim, let’s start the examinations,” Nurse asked her. Gwiboon nodded.
“Nicole, just go home. Thanks for driving me here. Seunghyun is waiting too long,” Gwiboon thankfully.
Nicole nodded, “Good luck sweetheart,”
***.
“Ahh, Gwiboonnie, nice to see you again,” Dr. Jung Yong Hwa smiled by seeing the familiar pinkish girl.
Gwiboon smiles and bows politely. Dr. Jung Yong Hwa is Gwiboon’s doctor when she still lives in USA. The last time Gwiboon had treatment is under his vision.
“Still loves pink magenta?” Dr. Jung smiled to see Gwiboon’s pinkish clothes. Gwiboon is giggling cutely. Dr. Jung ever in love with Gwiboon, but he keep his feelings. Because that time, Gwiboon was as weak as unrepaired wings.
“More than you think,” Gwiboon grinned. Dr. Jung feels his heart was fluttering by seeing Gwiboon’s smiles.
They were exchanging the late news and told every story after they separate because Gwiboon’s treatment already done and Dr. Jung decided to move back to Seoul.
“So Gwiboon, I’m sure this is not good news for you,” Dr. Jung started. Gwiboon charming smiles disappears.
“I’m sorry Gwiboon, but I guess, you cells were the strong ones, the last time you did the treatments were not enough to dispel the bad cells away. They just sleep and wait for the right time to wake up, I guess they were found the right time,” Dr. Jung said.
Gwiboon feels that her heart was stung by something sharp. She is freezing and speechless.
“I-I’m so sorry, Gwiboonnie,” Dr. Jung held his needs to pull Gwiboon to his embrace. They fell into a pain full silent. Usually Dr. Jung will directly explain the treatment choices for his patients, but Gwiboon was left a special thing in his heart. He doesn’t want to torture her.
“What should I do?” Gwiboon whispered confusedly.
“Well, first thing, we needed to choose 2 options of treatment. If the one failed, you still have another option,”
“I have the best options for you. We will do a few times of chemotherapy and radiotherapy to kill the cancer. Well as you knew before, cancer is unpredictable. If those didn’t work as well, we need to take a second options,” Dr. Jung spooked.
“Please, don’t say that I got to remove my breast away,” Gwiboon eyes started glazed.
Dr. Jung stumbled. He gripped Gwiboon’s hand on the table. He wishes he could transfer all his spirit to this beautiful girl.
“I’m sorry, but that’s all I have,” Dr. Jung said lowly.
***.
Gwiboon walked in to her flat, it seems that the other is hanging around there. She plastered smiles and greeted them with cheerful voice.
“Annyeong all,” Gwiboon smiled.
Jonghyun and Yuri are having their dinner on the table while Nicole cooks something on the stove. They were waving and back to their meals. Gwiboon remove her black scarf and hanging her overcoat to the wall. She joined Yuri and Jonghyun on the table.
“Omo, so tiring day,” she removed her boots.
“Where is Seunghyunnie?” Gwiboon asked Nicole.
Nicole shrugged.
“I don’t know, he might be at Jinki’s flat with Minho and Jonghoon, he sticks with play station with Minho,” Nicole smiled.
Nicole serves Gwiboon a mug of milk tea, made the other thankfully. She sipped the drinks and suddenly all the coldness in her feet was gone. Nicole serves a large amount of cutting fruits.
“That was your dinner?” Jonghyun asked.
Gwiboon and Nicole are staring at Jonghyun disgust face confusedly.
“Yes! What? Is there something wrong with this healthy dinner?” Nicole said sharply.
“It’s fruits. They are the bird food. Did you guys have planning to be a bird?” Jonghyun asked.
“Jeez, Yuri. Can you explain to this raptor about how fast you gain the weight because of a plate of complete meal on dinner?” Nicole rolled her eyes.
“Yuri is always having full dinner, and she still has a Giselle Bunchend's shape in her body,” Jonghyun praised his lover.
“She got a lucky genetic, because she could eat as much as you, but still have that body,” Gwiboon said.
“Yes, yeobo. It’s difficult to me to gain a weight,” Yuri said sadly and glance to her waist.
“Ah, I see. You guys have the poor genetic for being fat ass girl,” Jonghyun teased them and suddenly receive the smashing watermelon in his cheek.
Gwiboon smiled so sad. She’s going to miss Nicole and the boys fight. She sighed. Nicole feels Gwiboon’s sadness.
“So, how the test was?” Nicole said.
Gwiboon avoids Yuri’s sight. They fall into a silent.
“Guys, could you help me please?” Gwiboon asked seriously to her friends.
They nodded and trying to process Gwiboon’s explains.
“Please, keep your mouth about this from Jinki. If he should know these, at least I’m the one will explain all the reasons,”
“But he will feel so sad,” Jonghyun disagreed.
“He will be more sad if I dead because of suffer every time I saw her sad face beside me,” Gwiboon denied.
“What if he finds the other girl?” Nicole said.
“No he won’t, he loves Gwiboon so much, you will destroy him,” Jonghyun hard headed.
“JUST PLEASE! Grant my offer. This is all I can do to make him happy! I’ll take all the risk,” Gwiboon emphasized.
***.
It’s been a month after Gwiboon missing. Jinki still couldn’t let it go. The mixed feelings between angry, disappointment, worries and missing were stuck in his heart. Every morning he opens his eyes slowly and wishes that all the sadness is a dream.
“Jinki, wake up!” Jonghyun said.
Jinki is sighing. He stands up and stretches his body. He greeted to Gwiboon smiling pictures.
“Yeobo, good morning, I hope I could see you today,” Jinki smiled sadly.
He kissed the frame and caressed the “cheek” and started showers.
That day is the first day after a long holiday. Jinki and Jonghyun prepare to go to the lesson. Jonghyun is trying to adaptation to Jinki’s changed attitude. Jinki changed a lot after Gwiboon’s leaving. The sadness is driving his sanity, but he couldn’t do anything, because he keeps the promise, for the worst thing he will keep the secret at least until Gwiboon’s death.
“Lee Jinki, Kim Jonghyun, let’s have a breakfast,” Nicole shouted from her flat.
Jinki and Jonghyun were climbing the stairs and opening Nicole door. Yuri was ready and now she is having cereal while reading the books. Nicole asked Yuri to move with her because there are 3 rooms on Nicole’s flat. She got the permit from dorm to move with Nicole since a month ago.
Jinki walks to Gwiboon’s room. He smells the scents of his lover and scans the room as he could find Gwiboon presence there. He opens the window and let the fresh air comes. He takes Gwiboon black scarf and round it to his neck. Gwiboon’s perfume is lingered on his nostrils.
Nicole is giggling by seeing Jinki’s girly scarf.
“Are you going to wear that?” she asked funnily. Jonghyun and Yuri were chuckled.
“Yes! Why? Does it too girly for me?” Jinki grinned. They were laughed.
“Oh Jinki, you are so cute. I hope that Gwiboon will come back soon, don’t worry Jinki,” Nicole said.
Jinki nodded and smiled.
***,
It’s been 6 month after Gwiboon’s leaving. Jinki still can’t move on like his friend suggested. Gwiboon is the first lover that he ever loves with so many feelings. He still greets Gwiboon picture every day in the morning and before he sleep.
He cleans Gwiboon’s room without move her stuff, hopes that Gwiboon will come home and found that Jinki was took care of hers. Jinki is trying so hard to memorize anything about Gwiboon. Because since the time passed by his memories about Gwiboon is fading away and blurring without his will. By cleaning Gwiboon’s room every day, he was helping himself for keep reminding Gwiboon as a first girl in his life that already made a big empty space in his heart when she was leaving.
Jinki decided to keep his mind busy. He takes a lot of part time job to keep him doing something. He still holds a live performance at Vanilla every weekend. Every night is most torture moment for Jinki. He keeps wishing that Gwiboon melodious voice will sing him a lullaby. He is missing the moment that he fall into slumber with Gwiboon’s voice.
The days were passed by so fast. Slow but sure Jinki feels happy of his busy day. It made him forget about his sadness and sleep tightly because of exhausted. Jinki’s body is growing thin day by day.
“Jinki, I have a letter for you,” Jonghyun called him as Jinki entered to Vanilla. Its weekend already he was usually selecting the requested songs.
Jinki take a seat in front of the counter. He scans the vanilla’s guest. The crowded will come at 7 pm, and now still 5 pm.
“Here you are,” Jonghyun smirked.
Jinki is gasping. The pink letter is in his hand. He stares at the letter dumbly. The letter paper was different as usually, but still cute and pinkish with a cat animated on the letter.
“She is back!” Jinki whispered surprised.
***,
Dear Jinki,
How are you, gorgeous? I’m sorry for being a bitch lately. I was stopped to send you a letter because I have very tired days. But I’m still thinking of you. Hey, eat well, I saw you so skinny as skull. Please take care of yourself. I wish I could see you Jinki. I’m just a coward.
“When your two eyes were look at me. When you are smile at me. My heart just stops. I only ask one thing of you to smile always. You are fresh like a vitamin when I’m tired. You are like mom embrace when I’m sick. I will hug you tight. I will find my dream even in slow steps. I want you in my life,”
Play this music with guitar, it will be more perfect. I can’t watch you this week. Next week, I’ll watch you at Saturday.
MS. C
“Ahh, this is CN Blue song, I knew this song,” Jonghyun said. Jinki watch his hands nervously. He never practice guitar any longer since he is playing piano a lot than guitar.
For the first time in six month, Jinki is giggling while his stomach growls because of starving.
***.
The pink letter was a mood booster for Jinki since Gwiboon was leaving. Jinki was cleaning Gwiboon’s room with smiling face. Since the first time he was received the pink letter. He feels that the connection between him and the writer were tied. Even though he didn’t know who was her but it seems that she could bring back Gwiboon’s warmth in his life.
Ms. C is the one who makes him recalling about his feeling to Gwiboon. Whoever she is, Jinki got to thank her, because the letter always reminds me how grateful he is for meeting Gwiboon. Jinki keep practicing until late at night.
Jinki always receives the letter routinely, every week. The letter was bringing him a new light when he feels so lost without Gwiboon. Jinki think that the letters were help him passing the day patiently until he could find Gwiboon.
***.
It’s been 8 month after she had been leaving. Gwiboon opened her eyes weakly. She was lying weakly on the bed. It used to be most fluffy bed ever, but her thin body feels that the bed is too hard for her. Gwiboon reaches the TV remote on small table beside her bed. She pushed play button.
Melodious and known-well voice starts filling her room. She smiles at the guy in screen. The handsome guy with cheeky smiles and brown orbs is staring at the corner of the space where he was performed.Sometimes he closed his eyes and smiled lovingly. The thick fingers were playing guitar in a very good way.
Gwiboon saw that the guy’s hair was longer than the last time she met, and his body is skinnier. She missed how soft that hair in her fingers when they having their time together snuggling with the guy in her embrace and asking Gwiboon to strokes his hair.
“Jinki, I missed you,” tears were flowed in her cheeks.
“So this is the last song for this week, this is Ms.C request. I will perform this song for Ms. C and my lovely girlfriend, Kim Gwiboon, yeobo, comes home soon, I miss you so much,”
Yes, the guy on her TV screen is Jinki. Gwiboon’s heart is aching when she heard Jinki’s message. She keeps watching Jinki’s performance. After it she is smiling. She takes a stick beside her bed and starts walking slowly with the stick to the support of her body.
Gwiboon touched her bald head. Her beautiful long curly hairs were gone. They couldn’t stand the heat of chemotherapy liquids. They were fallen one by one every day. Gwiboon is completely bald right now. She runs the finger on her dry, burnt and wrinkled skin. She looks at her reflections in the mirror.
Jinki might be scared by seeing Gwiboon right now. Gwiboon was loss 30 kilos of her weight for 8 month. The extreme cancer treatment has been removed her beauty away. She sighed sadly.
She puts toothpaste on toothbrush and starts get her teeth brushed. The pain strokes her gum so bad, Gwiboon spitted on the washbasin. Her blood is spreading everywhere. Her teeth were weak as if it easy to pulled away. Her aching gum seems never ending torture when she’s eating.
Gwiboon could stand or walk properly because her leg bones were corrupted because of heat drugs. All of the impact of the treatment always makes her grateful because all the impact can wait to be healed. But her cancer treatment seems didn’t give her any good results.
“Gwiboonnie, how are you?” Dr. Jung Yong Hwa greeted.
“Ahh, Yong Hwa-oppa, I’m fine, thank you,” Gwiboon smiled. She sits on the bed and eating the porridge.
“So, how was my Gwiboon weekend?” Yonghwa smirked. Gwiboon is giggling softly. Yonghwa decided to help Gwiboon to send every letter to Jinki through Vanilla and records all Jinki’s performance. Gwiboon health is drastically good after he did that. Jinki is Gwiboon real drugs, but Gwiboon still hides herself from Gwiboon.
“Jinki is skinnier than last video. I wonder if he eats properly.” Gwiboon bit her lip.
“He is worried about you. I hope you’ll think about tell Jinki about you sickness,” Yonghwa said wisely.
“No, I don’t want to make him sad. I promise that I must be cured so I could go back to him,” Gwiboon said.
Yonghwa sighed. Gwiboon is stubborn about her opinion. It’s because she already experience the pain to be left when Minho leave her.
“Omo, Yonghwa-oppa, I can’t grip the pencil any longer, how I could write Jinki a letter?” Gwiboon protested sadly.
***.
Gwiboon condition is getting worse day by day. There is a time that she couldn’t eat and vomits once she smells the food. She is starving, but her body always refuses all the foods. Her throat was sore because the vomits leave scars on the throat.
It’s been a week that Gwiboon’s stomach can’t approve any food. All she could eat was a cold plain jelly without any flavor. It will give her comfortable feeling on her gums. Gwiboon feels so powerless, even for talking.
Yonghwa is worried. He couldn’t stand the pain by seeing Gwiboon in dangerous stage. He decided to move Gwiboon to hospital for getting latest treatment. Yonghwa brings nurses for carrying Gwiboon to ambulance and makes sure she gets a best chance to keep alive.
Yonghwa feels the tears on his cheeks while he wipes the blood from Gwiboon nose. He grips Gwiboon’s finger softly. He could feel that the fingers bone were appear clearly on her skins. It’s just a time until all the bone in her body will rip out her skin.
“Jinki….I….miss…You….” Gwiboon whispered unconsciously.
Yonghwa swear to the god. Even though he loves Gwiboon so much, and really want to have Gwiboon as his lover, but he promised will heal her so she could be with Jinki like they used to be.
“Doctor!! His pulse is getting lower!!” nurse said.
“Jin….ki…” Gwiboon called her lover.
***.
Jinki is jumping out when Gwiboon’s overcoat falls to the floor. He was overslept on Gwiboon’s bed. He takes a look to the sky, its dark already. Jinki walks to the fallen pink overcoat. He wants to return the overcoat to the hanger, but there is a lot of dust covering it.
Jinki is slapping the overcoat to remove the dust when he felt a hard thing on the pocket. He gropes the pocket and found the pink IPod inside it. Jinki’s eyes widening. He turns on the button but it seems out of battery. He decided to charge it and listen it.
He stares at Gwiboon’s pictures and suddenly feels the aching things on his chest.
“Yeobo, I might be away for a week. Some hospital has been inviting me to celebrate the Christmas with children on there,” Jinki said.
Gwiboon smiling picture is still silent. Jinki is sighing. Sometime he wishes that the picture could talk to him.
***.
The pink letter is stop coming lately. Jinki feels so lonely. He is practicing piano and guitar every night to avoid his lonely heart. Everybody was noticing that Jinki is crying out loud through his music. Sometimes he sings so deep, and his voice could wound every heart whose listen to him.
The neighbor starts throw him a pitiful looks because his love story has been drove him crazy. Jinki knows that his neighbor thinks that he is crazy, but Jinki doesn’t care, they don’t understand. Jinki really wants Gwiboon back.
“Jinki is talking to Gwiboon’s picture. Poor Jinnie, he must be love that girl so much,”
“Off course, who didn’t? Gwiboon is so pretty. There is no girl could beat her,”
“I heard that he cleans Gwiboon room every day,”
“Yeah, but now she left that guy. I heard that she is missing?”
“Yes, some rumor said that Gwiboon has passed away,”
“But why Nicole still keeping that room occupied?”
“Shuushh, he is coming,”
Jinki is bowing politely to his neighbor without a smile. Jinki already forgot how to smile. His appearance was totally changed. No one can see a warm good looking guy any longer. The skinny, cold and gloomy guy was replaced Jinki’s body. After Jinki came inside his flat, the melodious tones are playing.
“Did you hear that? Gosh, I guess Jinki should check his brain to make sure that he still sane,”
The neighbors keep talking about the poor guy.
***.
It’s Christmas Eve. Jinki just arrived to the small town. He is texting Jonghyun that he just arrived and now on his way to the hotel. Jonghyun will come and watch Jinki’s performance with the rest. Even Taemin will come to celebrate the Christmas together.
“Jinki-ssi?” someone called him.
“Yes, are you Minhyuk-ssi?” Jinki asked.
“Yes, nice to meet you. I feel relief that you are not so much different as your picture,” Minhyuk guided him to the parking lot. It’s cold outside. The chilling wind brushed Jinki’s face harshly.
Jinki is smiling. Minhyuk is a promoter for the charity event on hospital. He seems younger than Jinki.
“How old are you?” Minhyuk asked.
“I’m 22 years old,”
“Oh gosh, I thought that you are younger than me. I’m sorry hyung,” Minhyuk embarrassed.
Jinki is laughing.
“No, it’s okay,”
A middle-high car is approaching them. Minhyuk is opening the door for Jinki and crossing to another door for himself.
“This is my member too, his name is Jungshi,”
“Hello, nice to meet you,” Jinki greeted while Jungshi smiled.
They talked about the event they usually held on Christmas. Jinki seems so interesting.
“Yes, we always held this event every Christmas to cheer the kids. The kids were diagnosed by cancer. Some of them couldn’t have much time left,” Jungshi said.
“Our pianist was dead last year because of cancer. So we need to hire pianist this year, and I saw your performance last month,” Minhyuk said.
“Oh, that was so sad,” Jinki said sadly.
“Thank you. That’s why we decided to held this event annually, I’m glad that you participated with us,” Minhyuk said.
“Here we are,” Jungshi said.
Jinki saw a big hospital. Jinki come inside the hospital with excitement. After greets with nurses (some of them flirts at him) and doctors. Jinki stepped into a playing room. There are a lot of children over there. Their innocent face makes Jinki feel so bad because they were burdened with dangerous diseases. Minhyuk and Jungshi were playing around with kids. they are so familiar amoung the kids.
“Oppa read me a story,”
Jinki was surprised. At first he thought that she was a boy, because of her bald head. Her fluffy cheeks were stained by rashes. The girl is smiling. She knows that Jinki is a bit surprise about her bald head. She crawled on Jinki’s lap.
“You must be confused about my head,” the girl giggled cutely. Jinki was busted. He smiled awkwardly.
“I’m sorry little girl, but honestly I never saw a bald girl,” Jinki scratched his head. The girl is smiling.
“What is your name?” Jinki asked.
“My name is Jasmine, I’m 6 years old,”
“That name is suited for you. My name is Jinki,” Jinki said. They smiled and Jasmine reminds him to someone.
“I didn’t do this deliberately. I’m bald because of the drugs. They were to hot and made my hair pulled away,” Jasmine rubbed her head. Jinki smiled.
“But you still look so pretty with that bald,” Jinki teased. Jasmines giggled and tell him about her activity that day. How the radiotherapy session always painful for her because it burnt her soft skin, and how she couldn’t eat anything for a week because of her body reject all the food even though she is starving. Jinki feels so sad. So he is telling her story and singing to Jasmine until she fell asleep.
“Ah, thank you Jinki-ssi, could you carry her to the room, let me guide you,” nurse said when she saw Jasmine was sleeping.
“Jinki-ssi, it’s strange that Jasmine trying to approach you. She never did that to stranger especially to a man. Her conditions are getting worse lately. It might be not so long time for her to live,”
Jinki feels that his knees were powerless. This little girl doesn’t have a chance to grow up. Jinki strokes her rashes cheek. Maybe the drugs give her these rashes too. Jinki is laying Jasmine body to the bed.
“Jinki-oppa, will you here when dinner? My mom and my dad are not coming to day, my eonnie who always accompany me was having her radiations today, she might be tired too,” Jasmine whispered.
Jinki suddenly nodded. He can’t leave the lonely girl alone.
“Yes, I will. If you don’t mind I will bring all my friends to accompany you, they will come at dinner too,” Jinki said.
“I’d love to,” Jasmine closed her eyes sleepily.
“Rest well princess,” Jinki saw that Jasmine lips curved into smile.
***.
Jinki sets the hospital as a meeting point to Jonghyun and the other. Since the dinner time is near. He decided to stay at hospital. The nurse offers him their resting room. So Jinki put all his stuff at resting room.
“Nurse-noona, can you show me where the cafeteria is? I’m so hungry,” Jinki asked.
“Oh, let’s go together. I was taking break right now,”
They walk at the cafeteria and have an interesting conversation. Jinki saw a familiar face on cafeteria.
“Boram-noona, who was that?” Jinki asked to the nurse.
“Oh that was Dr. Jung, he is in charge on adult patients here, he is so handsome,” Boram said.
Jinki is smiling. Jinki was sure that he never knows the guy before, but the face was so familiar. Jinki is overhearing about his conversations about the patient.
“Dr. Jung is worried lately, because his main patient is getting worse by day, he has very close connections with that patient. She is the one who accompany Jasmine, every night. Today her health is dropped,” Boram said. Jinki nodded. He hopes that whoever the girl will cure soon.
Jinki is sitting on a stainless chair in front of Jasmine room. He feels so bored. Suddenly he remembers Gwiboon’s IPod. It had been charged last night. Jinki switch the on button, it takes a few minutes to buffers, maybe because the IPod has been dead for so long.
“HEY, I’M THAT COOL CAT, MEOW~”
Jinki is laughing. Gwiboon is loves cats so much. He had a planned to give Gwiboon a cat when she is birthday. Jinki play the first song in the IPod. Gwiboon’s music color is well known. She loves indie alternative bands but he loves cheesy boy bands too. That’s why behind her strong personality, Gwiboon could be so romantic if her heart conditions is happy.
Jinki rolled the button to the pictures templates. He saw that many Gwiboon’s picture. There’s a few with her friends on USA (and off course Minho was there too), with Nicole and Yuri (Jinki is laughing when he saw so many silly poses that they did on the dorm), and a lot of her picture with Jinki.
Jinki finds a slideshow with their picture in it. Jinki smiles and play the playlist. His heart was stopped when he saw Gwiboon pictures with a pink letter. Love Should Go On is playing. The picture is sliding away and changing into another familiar pink letter. Jinki saw all the requested song on Gwiboon’s playlist.
Gwiboon is the letter sender. She sent it to Jinki for supporting him. Even though Gwiboon is leaving, but she still sent the love with the letter to Jinki. Jinki is crying. He couldn’t stand the pain so he turned off the IPod. He really misses Gwiboon so bad. He turns away the IPod and saw a soft graven on it.
Miss cool cat meow
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‘Gwiboon where are you? I know you somewhere out there, somewhere far away, I just want you back.
People think I’m crazy, they don’t understand, you’re all I have. God, let me meet her,’
Jinki is crying and his body is trembling so badly. He wipes his tears and hardening his heart. He dazed for a while. He didn’t know what his fault that made Gwiboon has left him.
The automatic door is opening. Jinki lifted his head to the wheelchair that bring a young skinny girl with a pink blanket on her laps. The girl is so pale and weak and her had is bald. She wears a pink knitted hat. If Jinki didn’t see her for second times, he will never realize that the girl on the wheel chair is Gwiboon.
Gwiboon is hard to recognize, she was changed so much. Jinki is stumbled.
“Gwiboon, is that you?” Jinki whispered.
The girl is lifting her head and gazed to Jinki’s face. Her eyes are widening while he recognized Jinki figure. She closed her mouth with skinny finger.
“J-Jinki?”
Jinki couldn’t recall how glad he was when Gwiboon eyes were tearing and inviting Jinki to her embrace. They were crying so loud. Jinki kissed Gwiboon face so many times.
“Don’t leave me again Gwiboon, I beg you,” Jinki cried.
“Look at me Jinki, just look at me now,” Gwiboon force Jinki’s face to see her.
“I’m dying! The breast cancer is killing me slowly, look at my ugly body, will you still love me?” Gwiboon said and removed her hat to show her bald head.
Jinki ran his finger to Gwiboon jaw line. Her soft skin is burnt. Her lips were dried. Her long fingers were skinny as a tooth picks. Her bald head was stained with rashes. But behind all the broken figure, she still Gwiboon, and Jinki never saw Gwiboon from the looks.
“Off course, you still pretty as I remember, I still love you Gwiboon,” Jinki said.
Gwiboon smiled and fainted. She can’t bear her happy feelings.
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