(no subject)
aiii. last night was really sad. emily had us all over to her room, and bought some blue sky organic cola for the occasion, and even though i had only planned to stay for an hour because i needed to write a paper, i ended up staying from like 10:30 to 3am, talking and giggling and just loving everyone there. emily leaves today and even though it's not quite as sad for me as for everyone else, since she'll be in dc this summer and so i'll see her in like a month and a half, alisa is gonna be in senegal all next year and no one knows if stina will be around or not and so it was the last time we were all gonna be together, and that felt way more important than writing my paper.
i can't process at all the fact that i'm never gonna be at smith with alisa again and that stina is graduating in like a week and still doesn't know if she'll be here or in sweden next year. i fell asleep last night thinking about everything that was gonna be different, and then had a dream that lindsey was going abroad too and that naomi's parents weren't letting her come back to smith because it was too gay, or something, and i think something was happening to lynnea too, and the overwhelming sense i had was that i just wasn't gonna have any friends next year at all.
i woke up this morning and sent naomi a text message saying "i just had a very convincing scary dream in which, among other things, you weren't coming back to smith next year. not true right??" and she wrote back: "NOT TRUE. i wouldn't leave you for ANYTHING." i love that girl. i love everyone here so much. i'm excited about this summer like nothing else but saying goodbye to people is so fucking sad. i can't handle it. i feel we're gonna spend all of next week crying constantly in lynnea's room. i can't believe that in a year, i'll be the one graduating...aiiiiii.
in other unhappy but perhaps slightly less depressing news, i have to get my wisdom teeth removed when i go home. wtf right?! and the appointment is scheduled for june 14th, which is like 2 days before i go to dc and 5 days before i start work. pretty awesome. i told emily this and she was like "um...i guess that'll be ok?" which means definitely not. my mom thinks it's fine and i'll recover within a day, which i'm sure is not true, but whatever, i'm not sure what i can do about it.
ok. i borrowed a book from elisabeth and now she needs it back and i still haven't used it, so i should get on that. and then i have to go to the last vendor code of conduct committee meeting and talk to administrators about hermosa and just garments and the 5 factory proposal and whatever else might come up. so i should get dressed, too. that'd be good.
i can't process at all the fact that i'm never gonna be at smith with alisa again and that stina is graduating in like a week and still doesn't know if she'll be here or in sweden next year. i fell asleep last night thinking about everything that was gonna be different, and then had a dream that lindsey was going abroad too and that naomi's parents weren't letting her come back to smith because it was too gay, or something, and i think something was happening to lynnea too, and the overwhelming sense i had was that i just wasn't gonna have any friends next year at all.
i woke up this morning and sent naomi a text message saying "i just had a very convincing scary dream in which, among other things, you weren't coming back to smith next year. not true right??" and she wrote back: "NOT TRUE. i wouldn't leave you for ANYTHING." i love that girl. i love everyone here so much. i'm excited about this summer like nothing else but saying goodbye to people is so fucking sad. i can't handle it. i feel we're gonna spend all of next week crying constantly in lynnea's room. i can't believe that in a year, i'll be the one graduating...aiiiiii.
in other unhappy but perhaps slightly less depressing news, i have to get my wisdom teeth removed when i go home. wtf right?! and the appointment is scheduled for june 14th, which is like 2 days before i go to dc and 5 days before i start work. pretty awesome. i told emily this and she was like "um...i guess that'll be ok?" which means definitely not. my mom thinks it's fine and i'll recover within a day, which i'm sure is not true, but whatever, i'm not sure what i can do about it.
ok. i borrowed a book from elisabeth and now she needs it back and i still haven't used it, so i should get on that. and then i have to go to the last vendor code of conduct committee meeting and talk to administrators about hermosa and just garments and the 5 factory proposal and whatever else might come up. so i should get dressed, too. that'd be good.