Aug 18, 2008 01:48
Chapter 3 is up! *passes out* Took me 2 and a bit hours to do (I think). Started it around 11:30pm-ish or as it 10:30pm-ish? Anyway it's 1:50am. I'm exhausted so yeah give me hell for the errors in this. I'll give it a re-read tomorrow/today to get rid of the errors I pick up. Next chapter, Bella's first hunting session. Now I sleep and promise myself never write 2 chapters in under 24 hrs. Especially when the first after a recount was near 5000 words and this chapter (mostly chat) is 2900 words.
Enjoy! *is dead*
Chapter 3 - First Moon
Her eyes open taking in everything in a new light, it was mesmerizing. Her eyes even changed in color and intensity did not lose that spark in them that almost made my heartbeat. She was just…stunning.
For now her eyes just studied the ceiling, the light and the air; as well as all the particles that were in the air we didn’t require. Something seemed to startle her as she took an intake of air, though no one had made a movement. Her startle made Jasper shift silently but my new born wife did not notice. Her focus was more on her new found taste just from taking in the air like it was the first time, being that it was as a vampire.
Her first breath brought back memories of my own. If a vampire managed to forget things after their rebirth, one thing they would not forget is their first breath. Hers would taste a hundred times better then mine. My first breath I could feel the taste the death, the plague in the air. It was suffocating. The fowl taste as people died for miles and the poultice in the air from the buildings. It had made me wish I had not been brought back from the near sanctuary of heaven. Now, all that disgust meant absolutely nothing. If I had not gone through that and been around for the past ninety odd years, I would have never met this still angel who has just woken to a new life. And that I owe to the plague that was destined to kill me and to Carlisle who created me.
Dragging myself from my memories, we watched Bella’s face twist a little as she concentrated. Something a human would have never seen. All they would see is a girl lying on her back. Her eyes open motionless as she stared. Seeing her breathe more we all took in air ourselves. Holding our own as so not to startle her but also out of habit, like a shocked human. Only we didn’t have that burn that forced us to take a breathe again.
Cautiously I gave Bella’s hand a little squeeze. She froze for a split second, the feeling I guess she was not expecting. My skin had always ice cold to her. Now it would be warm with our body temperatures the same. Her hand was free of mine and she was off the table and into a defensive position. A hiss came from her at my direction. I wanted to smile but now was not the time. Like us, she moved with such grace and she caught me off guard by the sight of her for half a millisecond.
I leaned over the table, my hand outstretched, cautious… no anxious. She may be my wife and still Bella but newborns were unpredictable. She seemed to focus on my face; she had never seen it in such…detail before. Her eyes darted to the rest of the family members. She must have picked up Emmett and Jasper’s scent of fear. She seemed to and straightened as Alice must of down something to reassure her. What she did, I was not sure because I was focused purely on newborn Bella right now.
She seemed to recognize us all which was a good thing and then she gave out a whisper of a gasp, her eyes so focused on my face that I took the chance to move around the table to her, going at our normal pace. Walking like a human would have been too slow, especially with her new view.
“Bella?” My voice no higher than a normal tone which would have been a whisper if she was still human. She seemed dazed and didn’t answer. “Bella, love? I’m sorry, I know it’s disorienting. But you’re all right. Everything is fine.”
She seemed to get lost in thought and how I wished I knew she was thinking, though I’m sure it was all muddled. I stood in front of her barely a few seconds had past. My fingers carefully stroked her cheek. I was ready to grab her or move back if her reaction went the wrong way. But there was no reaction to say she wasn’t enjoying it so I let my hand cup her cheek lightly. My eyebrow arching a little as I waited for her to speak. It had been too long since I heard her voice.
Her next reaction was unexpected and painful though not unpleasant. Her arms were around me, her head to my chest. The painful part was that she didn’t know her own strength and it caused me to shift, trying to get her to loosen her hold a little.
“Umm…carefully, Bella. Ow.”
She released me quickly, her arms behind her back. Innocents crossed her face as she mouthed ‘Opps.’
I couldn’t help but smile at the look on her face, “Don’t panic, love.” I let my finger across her lips lightly. “You’re just a bit stronger than I am for the moment.”
I ran my hand over her cheek again and with caution I felt as her hand touched my cheek in response, sending a small electrical shock through my body which was a first for me.
“I love you.” Her voice pierced the air in its musical tune.
I smiled back automatically at her words, she was truly mesmerizing as she always had been but now it was so much more intense then before.
“As I love you,” I took her face into my hands, slow and careful as I leaned in and kissed her softly at first as I always done like this in the past before then remembering I had no need to be gentle anymore. I deepened the kiss with a force I could not use before or she’d suffer an instant death. We were like a two wild teens running off pure hormones.
Our kiss was short lived no thanks to Emmett but Bella was still wrapped around me until she too picked up on it too and took a small step back. That caused me to chuckle at her embarrassment. Could she blush, I’m sure her face would be bright red right now. I closed the gap as she made it and turned to the others as my arm wrapped around her waist.
First thing accomplished on my secret list of ‘Pluses of us both being vampires’. I smirked to myself noticing she was watching.
“It was necessary at the time. Now it’s your turn not to break me.” I laughed and so did she. Carlisle moved around Emmett, he was still wary which was understandable but I was with Bella and Jasper followed behind Carlisle incase she snapped he’d could get her emotions under control.
“How do you feel, Bella?”
“Overwhelmed. There’s so much…” I watched as Bella was distracted by her own voice.
“Yes, it can be quite confusing.” I didn’t like how Carlisle was right now. He was in Dr. Cullen mode and Bella, was a patient.
“But I feel like me. Sort of. I didn’t expect that.”
I gave Bella a squeeze and whispered into her ear, “I told you so.”
“You are quite controlled. More so then I expected, even with the time you had to prepare yourself mentally for this.” Carlisle admitted as he watched her.
“I’m not sure about that.” She whispered, though all could still hear.
Carlisle nodded, his interest peaked again. “It seems like we did something right with the morphine this time. Tell me, what do you remember of the transformation process?”
Annoyed with how Carlisle was ‘analyzing’ everything I casually leant down to let my breath brush over her cheek to see if I could distract her before pulling back.
She hesitated which meant I had succeed. “Everything was…very dim before. I remember the baby couldn’t breathe…”
She looked up at me frightened by her memory. “Renesmee is healthy and well. What do you remember after that?”
Her face harden, in an attempt to think as far as I knew. “It’s hard to remember. It was so dark before. And then…I opened my eyes and could see everything.”
“Amazing,” Carlisle seemed exhilarated from this knowledge. I was just happy she wasn’t in pain during the whole thing.
“I want you to think~ to tell me everything you remember.” Carlisle was going overboard and too soon. I noticed Bella wince as did the rest of the silent room.
“Oh, I’m so sorry, Bella. Of course your thirst must be very uncomfortable. This conversation can wait.”
Thank god. I could see that Carlisle was making Bella a lap rat, with all the questions.
Bella’s hand came to her throat, he mentioning of it must have made it that much worse. I released my grasp on her waist and took her free hand leading her to the door.
“Let’s hunt, Bella.”
Her face opened up as shock made itself known. I gave her an encouraging smile. Watching her reactions reminded me of so many memories.
“It’s quite easy, love. Instinctual. Don’t worry, I’ll show you.” I waited for her to step forward but she wouldn’t budge. I smiled at her, the one that always dazzled her. I just arched my eyebrow into it. “I was under the impression that you’d always wanted to see me hunt.”
She laughed a little, I guessed she remembered a little of our few first conversations when she was human.
“Shall we?” I reach forward carefully with my free hand and took the one grasping her throat. “I don’t want you to be hurting.” I said quietly for the first time.
“I’m fine. Wait. First…” Had she lost her train of thought, I wasn’t sure.
“Yes?” Carlisle questioned.
“I want to see her. Renesmee.”
Watching her struggle with our daughter’s name and her hands left mine and fell to her stomach to feel the flat surface. Her hand lightly grabbing at the ice-blue silk at her stomach. She looked lost. Her strongest memories of our child were inside her as she died moments after seeing her for the first time.
I gave Carlisle a cautious glance as he did back to me, Bella noticed this. “What?”
She was frustrated by this. She should have known the obvious but her mind was muddled right now. “Bella,” My hand graced along her back as to soothe her as was my tone. “That’s not really a good idea. She’s half human, love. Her heart beats, and blood runs in her veins. Until your thirst is positively under control…you don’t want to put her in danger, do you?”
She frowned and I hoped she understood the cautious procedures we had to take. “Where is she?”
I watched as she listened, the scent of her own venom filling her mouth hit my nose. Not a good sign.
“Is Rosalie with her?”
“Yes” I used the tone that ended that sentence and grabbed her hand by her stomach trying to pull it way but she didn’t budge again.
“Wait. What about Jacob? And Charlie? Tell me everything that I missed. How long was I…unconscious?”
I glanced at Carlisle; once again it was not missed.
“What’s wrong?” her sweet voice a concerned whisper.
“Nothing is wrong” Carlisle lined the last work with emphasize. “Nothing has changed much. Actually~ you were only unaware for just over two days. It was very fast, as these things go. Edward did an excellent job. Quite innovative~ the venom injection straight to your heart was his idea.”
He smiled at me proud, not that I wanted the praise right now. He sighed before continuing. “Jacob is still here, and Charlie still believes that you are sick. He thinks you’re in Atlanta right now, undergoing tests at the CDC. We gave him a bad number, and he’s frustrated. He’s been speaking to Esme”
“I should call him…” Her voice dragged off as she understood that her voice would do him no justice. “Hold on~ Jacob is still here?”
Carlisle and I shared a glance, it was best to go and now. “Bella, there’s much to discuss but we should take care of you first. You have to be in pain…”
“But Jacob~”
I wanted to growl, she wanted to push it. “We have all the time in the world for explanations, love.”
She must have deliberated that she would wait, “Okay."
“Wait, wait, wait!” I cursed Alice as she prolonged things and with something so trivia. “You promised I could there the first time! What if you two run past something reflective?”
“Alice~” I had to force back a growl.
“It will only take a second!” Alice took off and I sighed, defeated.
“What is she talking about?”
Before Bella could get an answer, Alice was already back with Rosalie’s ceiling to floor mirror that was twice the width of Alice petite frame. And barely a step behind her was the now moving Jasper. Still watching Bella with caution as she confused him. Not like any of the newborns he had dealt with before. They all ran off of pure instinct where as Bella had control. If she ran from instinct she’d already attempt to drink from our daughter and killed Jacob.
Her eyes focused on Jasper, she must have noticed all the newborn bites on his visible skin. She had only seen them through…hazed eyes before. She reacted as I expected, defensive. Anyone else would do the same. He gave her a wryly smile and Alice got a little annoyed and pulled Bella’s attention away.
“Edward gave me grief for not getting you to a mirror before the wedding. I’m not going to be chewed out again.”
I raised an eyebrow at her, “Chewed out?”
“Maybe I’m overstating things” She said absently as she turned the mirror to Bella.
“And maybe this has solely to do with your own voyeuristic gratification.” I countered and she winked back.
My eyes looked back at my Mrs. Cullen. She stared at herself in wonder, in disbelief and then horror as she saw her eyes. She had seen them in a newborn before but through vampiric eyes you did not miss a single detail.
Her eyes did not leave the mirror as she spoke, “The eyes?”
“They’ll darken up in a few months,” I tried to be reassuring. “Animal blood dilutes the color more quickly than a diet of human blood. They’ll then amber first, then gold.”
“Months?” Bella’s voice was stressed but that past my ears as I saw Alice’s vision.
Jasper had stepped forward alarmed that had set Alice off. I saw that Jasper’s curiosity was getting the better of him but nothing would happen.
“No, I’m fine” My eyes focused as Bella looked at herself in the mirror. “It’s just…a lot to take in.”
How does she do that?
“I don’t know,” I murmured truthfully. Bella’s mind was the only one I could not tap into.
My response to the silent question caused her to frown. “What question did I miss?”
I couldn’t help but grin, exposing Jasper would be fun. “Jasper wonders how you’re doing it.”
“Doing what?”
“Controlling your emotions, Bella.” I could read the shock still firm in Jasper’s mine that I chuckled inwardly. “I’ve never seen a newborn do that~ stop an emotion in its tracks that way. You were upset, but when you saw our concern, you reined it in, regained power over yourself. I was prepared to help, but you didn’t need it.”
“Is that wrong?”
“No,” Jasper’s voice held it’s uncertainty.
I ran my hand down Bella’s arm encouraging her. “It’s very impressive; Bella, but we don’t understand it. We don’t know how long it can hold.”
I heard Alice impatience before she spoke it. “But what do you think?” She point to the mirror as she questioned Bella.
“I’m not sure…” Bella was afraid. I could see it in her eyes. She didn’t want anyone to know.
She lifted her hand and waved and watched as the mirror image copied and then touched her face. I sighed lightly and she looked at me with a raised eyebrow.
“Disappointed?”
I couldn’t help but laugh, “Yes.”
Bella was shocked, Alice snarled and Jasper got on the defensive to up in. I paid them no mind and wrapped my arms tightly around her form. Carefully I pressed my lips to her cheek.
“I was rather hoping that I’d be able to hear your mind, now that it is more similar to my own,” I murmured against her cheek softly. “And here I am, as frustrated as ever, wondering what could possibly be going on inside your head.”
She seemed to settle with that. “Oh well, I guess my brain will never work right. At least I’m pretty.”
I let a growl rumble through my lips into her ear. “Bella, you have never been merely pretty.”
Could you take her hunting now? This is becoming more then I can handle.
I pulled back from Bella annoyed, “All right, all right.”
“What?”
“You’re making Jasper more edgy by the second. He may relax a little when you’ve hunted.”
They exchanged some acknowledgement though I was not paying attention. “Okay. Let’s hunt.”
Bella unwrapped my arms from around her and held onto one of my heads. Which was then Alice took the mirror back to Rosalie and Emmett’s room, at a human pace.
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