i can't

[nemo_0230]

I can't feel the pain
so i cut the pad
of the finger that i use to point

i can't heed the voice
ringing in my head
that tells me to stop right now

i won't listen, i won't talk
i'll only make the feelings come
by making the mark on my finger

i'm scared, i'm alone
i have no where to turn
i have no one there to hold me

i'm not here, in this world
i can't feel, in this world,
get me out of the pain that i hear

i don't want the help
that you pretend to give
give it straight from your heart
or i can't live out the pain i hear

cut the veins, with thoughts of suicide
place the blame on me
don't give up until the blood
runs down the keys and ruins

it doesn't hurt, it doesn't fade
the nonexistant waves of emotion
i can't feel, i can't touch

i am lonely and afraid
i'm scared and not alive
i love the world that lives
with all the suicide!

i want to join the masses
and make my tears burn red
i sing the ranting song
that only the devil has made!

i wanna go home
to the place where i'm hated
to place where everythings new

i wanna stay here
to play with the wounds
that have not made me feel

i wanna go home
i'm lonely and sad
i don't feel waht i need too!

it's ok, fall asleep
don't worry over me
i'm alright

not alright
i wanna go home!
i'm at home but not home!