Thoughts
First off, Merry Christmas everyone and happy 2010. The ball is almost here and I'm so excited for this and to see what happens in 2010.
This could be a sad-ish update but I got stuff on my mind and hardly got any area to express myself at but here let's get started. First off, I love my friends but some of the time recently I always have had thoughts in my head when certain things I say or do all of a sudden I'm thinking that my friends are ignoring me or are thinking ill of me or talking bad about me behind my back or starting to loathe me.
Just things that have crossed me since now that i'm out of ACHS certain parts of my past are starting to come back and bite me in the ass. Such as 2 yrs ago my folks met a person I knew at ACHS and all of a sudden behind my back she starts speaking ill of me towards my folks. Then, weeks later my folks told me what happened and now got me thinking what my friends really think of me. Am I a burden? A annoying asshole? Does whatever good I think i'm doing towards people is really appreciative? Now I'm also starting to think if i'll ever find a spouse or a girlfriend who will like me for me? Whatever girl I like, all of a sudden it backfires in my face and she seems to fallen for another asshole. I always wonder what am I doing wrong? Am I actually likable towards people? Do people say nice stuff to me so I can shut the hell up? Questions like that always crosses my mind.
Anyways thats my ramblings for now.
This could be a sad-ish update but I got stuff on my mind and hardly got any area to express myself at but here let's get started. First off, I love my friends but some of the time recently I always have had thoughts in my head when certain things I say or do all of a sudden I'm thinking that my friends are ignoring me or are thinking ill of me or talking bad about me behind my back or starting to loathe me.
Just things that have crossed me since now that i'm out of ACHS certain parts of my past are starting to come back and bite me in the ass. Such as 2 yrs ago my folks met a person I knew at ACHS and all of a sudden behind my back she starts speaking ill of me towards my folks. Then, weeks later my folks told me what happened and now got me thinking what my friends really think of me. Am I a burden? A annoying asshole? Does whatever good I think i'm doing towards people is really appreciative? Now I'm also starting to think if i'll ever find a spouse or a girlfriend who will like me for me? Whatever girl I like, all of a sudden it backfires in my face and she seems to fallen for another asshole. I always wonder what am I doing wrong? Am I actually likable towards people? Do people say nice stuff to me so I can shut the hell up? Questions like that always crosses my mind.
Anyways thats my ramblings for now.