Feb 01, 2008 13:03
"Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try Again. Fail again. Fail better."
Samuel Beckett.
6 am. woke up. slept early yesterday (10). can't sleep anymore.
7 am. coffee. finished an application to one grad school. discovered that supplementary documents don't have to be submitted until may 1, 2008 and not feb. 11. feel bad about rushing references for letters, email them to notify of the date.
8 am. go to class. chat with class buddy about how tired we feel. answer some prs system q's in class. the prof is young, very laid back and chill. the subject is microbial genetics. most of the time, i have no idea what he talking about but i record the lectures to listen to in the evenings, when i'm more awake. remind myself that this may never happen, but remain optimistic. still type a few notes.
9 am. check email. print off reference letter. roommate sends email forwarded to her by the Suzuki foundation (zoology dept registered her). "this is his motive..." she wrote. It's a huge rant on voter apathy and how we need to make a stand with the government. Harper recently got rid of the National Science Advisor position.
10 am. go to see work supervisor/prof, at her request after having sent her an email about reference letters last night. she advises me on future prospects and reviews an unofficial transcript i give her. i was a dumbass, i was waiting for to give me back...sth...i was so tired i didn't realize there wasn't anything, so i hang around to chat and wait a bit. she has to remind me twice that she's busy and i should go. brought up the subject of the evacuation of the building 2 days ago due to bomb/shooting threat. no kidding. will elaborate at another time. go to bookstore to clear my head with tabloids and inspiring books like palmistry and "how to fail better" quotes. read about Heath Ledger, cover of People magazine.
11 am. go to work. make media. bleach test tubes. chat briefly with lab personnel (grads, post docs, tech, associate). slip mailing sheet to go with reference letter under the door of my other work supervisor, who's away but is aware of the letter. get a text msg from lunch buddy. she's messed up her sleep schedule, but woke up to cancel lunch and is now going back to sleep.
12 pm. out of work. very relaxed day since it's friday and there were no projects this week, at least for me. arrange for transcripts to be sent in for grad apps. go to the arts student lounge, where there are large comfy sofas and a very splendid view.
get another coffee. spent $8 total today on gourmet coffee. (!!!). asked for an extra shot this time. munch on cold bk sandwich from this morning (english muffin with egg, tomato and spinach).
1 pm. Class. Roman Women. chatted briefly with roommate on msn. she's going to a marine biology research centre on a lab retreat two weeks from now. yesterday she was worried about the group of grads she'd be going with. they enjoy drinking, minor mayhem, general partying, as does the prof ironically. the prof will drink with his students. that is, when they are not all working extremely hard. this is contrary to her quieter habits and rather reserved personality. I extended some sympathy, but secretly envy her. Have been relying on bailey's lately, just to help me sleep, i've been exhausted the last couple of nights but my mind doesnt shut off.
2 pm. sit for a moment. still feel absolutely exhausted. have to remind myself to go see the botany secretary about pay. will probably stop by the lab to consult grad student about work next week. (i.e. what am i doing?)
3 pm. have to make some sort of announcement to some 2nd year class about our club's event next wednesday. A social event for students and faculty. then have to do more postering for it around campus.
4 pm. safety meeting about traveling to Rome with Roman topography and monuments class. it hasn't hit me yet that i'm going. otherwise i'd be freaking out about packing, travel documents, cramming in assignments and research to make up for time missed for other studies.
5 pm. planning to go to bed insanely early and pray that i will get into grad school, somewhere. end up getting missed calls from club promotions exec. we've run out of posters. go to staples to print more.
6 pm. go home. find out about study group in the new sci building. decide to be a keener on a friday night.
11 pm. still studying. study drone 1: omg. it's a friday night and we're studying. and we're the only people here!! study drone 2: it's okay...we're all here! =.=
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