In the times of...
One of the worst things about living in Florida is the fact that there is always some scare for a hurricane coming. This place sucks and I need to move to a place where Hurricanes never hit, like the rest of the country. Maybe not the rest of the country because New Orleans is just as fucked as we are most of the time. I think that once I get away from here most of my problems will be solved. I want to move to Canada, my aunt lives there and she says that it’s the perfect place to live. Her children know THREE languages! Three, that’s insane, and its all taught IN school. She doesn’t pay to go to the hospital, now for me that’s a sweet deal, considering I'm always sick. Not always sick, but most of the time I'm feeling under the weather.
Love is something you nourish and keep alive. How could you love someone if you don’t trust them? I was just thinking about that, I know that people are capable of loving in different ways. I know someone who loves me but doesn’t trust me. I still don’t get that and it bothers me because I want to know that I am trusted, because I know that I could be a bad person at times, and me being a bad person makes me untrustworthy. I am bad, I know that and as much as people tell me that I am this wonderful person I know deep inside me that I could be a good person if I put my mind to it. But who is to judge who is good and who is bad? Not god or at least I don’t think all the burden should be placed on god. I mean I believe in god, or a being higher than myself. Someone who created this world and then left us to our own demise.
Speaking of religion and what I think about it. I love being Jewish, I believe that Judaism is the closest thing to my set of believes. The closest to the way I perceive life. I don’t agree with people who talk about sins and say what bothers them and what they think is wrong according to god or A god. But if you as a person think that something someone does is wrong then that changes the perception you have of that person because ultimately you think the way they are leading their life is WRONG, so the person is wrong. The way you see that person now is different, because you believe that they are sinning so ultimately they are wrong and in the back of your mind you judge them, so how could you look at them in the face and smile and agree with their lifestyle and then say that you don’t agree with it. Ugh, it frustrates me. People frustrate me. People should just not bother me. But that’s too much to ask. It’s too much to ask for a little peace and quiet once in a while.
I love Michelle. I love Andrew. I love Tati. I love Jenny. I love my Sister. I love Kellie. That is all.
Love is something you nourish and keep alive. How could you love someone if you don’t trust them? I was just thinking about that, I know that people are capable of loving in different ways. I know someone who loves me but doesn’t trust me. I still don’t get that and it bothers me because I want to know that I am trusted, because I know that I could be a bad person at times, and me being a bad person makes me untrustworthy. I am bad, I know that and as much as people tell me that I am this wonderful person I know deep inside me that I could be a good person if I put my mind to it. But who is to judge who is good and who is bad? Not god or at least I don’t think all the burden should be placed on god. I mean I believe in god, or a being higher than myself. Someone who created this world and then left us to our own demise.
Speaking of religion and what I think about it. I love being Jewish, I believe that Judaism is the closest thing to my set of believes. The closest to the way I perceive life. I don’t agree with people who talk about sins and say what bothers them and what they think is wrong according to god or A god. But if you as a person think that something someone does is wrong then that changes the perception you have of that person because ultimately you think the way they are leading their life is WRONG, so the person is wrong. The way you see that person now is different, because you believe that they are sinning so ultimately they are wrong and in the back of your mind you judge them, so how could you look at them in the face and smile and agree with their lifestyle and then say that you don’t agree with it. Ugh, it frustrates me. People frustrate me. People should just not bother me. But that’s too much to ask. It’s too much to ask for a little peace and quiet once in a while.
I love Michelle. I love Andrew. I love Tati. I love Jenny. I love my Sister. I love Kellie. That is all.