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Friends with love issues make me wonder where, not having had much for, god, five years, makes me feel like I've lost my youth.
I miss gossiping about interesting guys or who is with who and who did what with who. I don't care if it's teenage. With everyone around me getting married or being perfect fits with each other, I wonder where careless banter, the thrill (or would-be thrill), anxiousness and hopes of old days have gone. I miss it. Seriously. I used to crush easily. Now I can't even find myself in a casual crush, it's technically impossible for me or something, I just don't fall for people any more. And if I happen to do, fortune has it that said party's probably involved in becoming dad or husband or whatever other type of partner with someone else. Sure, they were turbulent times. But they felt alive. And at the moment, I don't really. I'm an onlooker into other people's lives. When anyone shows interest, I freak out. It goes like that.
The worries that come with age :(
I miss gossiping about interesting guys or who is with who and who did what with who. I don't care if it's teenage. With everyone around me getting married or being perfect fits with each other, I wonder where careless banter, the thrill (or would-be thrill), anxiousness and hopes of old days have gone. I miss it. Seriously. I used to crush easily. Now I can't even find myself in a casual crush, it's technically impossible for me or something, I just don't fall for people any more. And if I happen to do, fortune has it that said party's probably involved in becoming dad or husband or whatever other type of partner with someone else. Sure, they were turbulent times. But they felt alive. And at the moment, I don't really. I'm an onlooker into other people's lives. When anyone shows interest, I freak out. It goes like that.
The worries that come with age :(