begging for my sanity
I met with the design company agaon today, this time for a second interview. I think I can honestly say I plan to cry big fat baby tears if there is some hiccough to getting this job. As a testament to how badly I need the job, five times during my intervies this morning the store called. thank god I turned off my phone. It was stupid too. The computers were acting up and no one thought to handle it without calling both me and my boss (my boss, who was at the hospital with her husband who severely hurt himself last week). What really madee crazy is that my big boss was IN THE STORE when the problem occured. And instead of suggesting they call tech support, she suggested they call us and have us tell them how to deal with it.
Anyhow, I'm trying not to lose my cool about it since I have to walk in there in a few hours and I know already my boss is going to have me doing 12 things other than what I already know what I have to accomplish tonight.
The hardest part is accepting that I can't stay someplace miserable just because it's easy. I have the feeling that regardless of whether I land this dream job my notice will be going in to work relatively soon. Then again, every time I feel this way I get some good news at work or something gets drastically better. I have to stop letting the little things give me hope that the big picture will change. It never has before, I just want it to because it's easier to know haw to be unhappy here than to have to learn how to be unhappy elsewhere.
Anyhow, I'm trying not to lose my cool about it since I have to walk in there in a few hours and I know already my boss is going to have me doing 12 things other than what I already know what I have to accomplish tonight.
The hardest part is accepting that I can't stay someplace miserable just because it's easy. I have the feeling that regardless of whether I land this dream job my notice will be going in to work relatively soon. Then again, every time I feel this way I get some good news at work or something gets drastically better. I have to stop letting the little things give me hope that the big picture will change. It never has before, I just want it to because it's easier to know haw to be unhappy here than to have to learn how to be unhappy elsewhere.