June 13, 2011.
I spent more than an hour writing out this long post, then the page just disappeared, and livejournal's 'Autosave' didn't save it. Of course. I'm not writing all of that out again.
Got fired from AT&T on May 2nd. Wan't mad/upset/angry/bitter. I knew it was coming. I appreciate AT&T hiring me in the first place, but it was time to move on. I don't miss the job, but I do miss the money.
Drove to Miami on a whim (a week after I got fired). Had a lot of fun, even if I went by myself (which is par the course as of late).
Writing online full-time (no pay). Examiner.com (art-house movie reviews), Nelsonpants.com (major studio movie reviews, movie/music news, pop culture stuff, feminism), TheSeventhSister.net (chapter-by-chapter updates of the first draft of the novel). I wish I had done this years ago, I'd be much further along now.
I know neither where nor when I'm moving. New York seems unrealistic, don't want to end up homeless and crawling back to Arkansas.
Searching online for film classes/workshops I can take. I'd love to learn cinematography, but I don't have the money to go to a full-blown film school. I just need someone who can teach me the ins and outs of movie cameras.
This has been a very lonely year. Went to Miami alone. Going to the performance of CHICAGO in Little Rock on Wednesday, will likely be alone. Birthday is in two months, no idea what's happening (if anything). The effort just doesn't seem worth it anymore. I don't feel close to anyone. I don't feel like I have much in common with anyone, not even my best friends. They have lives I can't relate to. I dunno, maybe I just wish there was something on my Facebook/Twitter time-lines other than endless kid/pregnancy/spouse updates. I want friends who have other shit to talk about. Maybe I'm a jerk for feeling that way. If so, then I'll own it.
This whole year is uncertain. What comes next? I don't know. I just don't know.