i've had all my best friends are metalheads stuck in my head all morning, and it's awesome.
ok, cool. tomorrow's new years. so it's time for that most magical of all posts, the fleetingly retrospective new years recap. these things are always a little weird for me. most people use livejournal as a way of documenting stuff that's going on in their lives. i've always used it more as a way of documenting what's happening inside my head, which is great if you WANT people to know what's happening inside your head. of course, i usually want my feelings recorded one way or another, so i end up making crazy backwards references to ska songs that in my mind tie in to a cartoon i liked when i was 12 which in turn ties into a girl i like because she once dropped a catch phrase from said show while eating a taco. for some reason i'm attracted to women who enjoy mexican food. what was i talking about? i've never made a friends only post, or a private post, mostly because i don't see the point of using a public forum that exists on a public information medium. maybe i'm just not web 2.0 enough, maybe i was fine with 1.0, being my own webmaster and being in total control of my space. knowing that at a whim i could delete my friends comments, feelings be damned, it's not like they can give me a one star rating or something. at most i was happy after the web 1.8 expansion, you know, the one with the new vehicles and the burning earth campaign mode? maybe i'm just a sucker for the classics. i hear you can get geocities on emulator now, but all the people who e-mail you to say your images aren't loading are just ncps.
point is, there are now giant gaps in my personal history that i simply didn't want to document on the interent, and because every pen and paper journal i try to start comes out stillborn i'm kinda screwed for chronological order and junk. if i have a newyears resolution it's to write down more in notebooks. i've been getting better at it, i think it's something i can stick to. it's fun anyway.
2007 is an odd year. if i could, i'd start this passing year in june 2006 and end it in this september, then start a new year from there. as it stands, high marks all around in the end. probably the happiest and most miserable year i've had in a long time, which sounds kinda crappy but beats the hell out of the "dooooh, i don't have feelings, blaaaaah, i don't hate life it's just unbearably boring" junk i used to spout. i've always had the theory the 4 of each decade is the defining year of that decade and by the 8 everything's either died off or reached it's cleft. the zero's are already twitching in the gutter, so i'm excited to see what's going to fester out of 2007's gunshot wounds and become it's own concious being. c'mmon 2008, let's tear this shit down.
point is, there are now giant gaps in my personal history that i simply didn't want to document on the interent, and because every pen and paper journal i try to start comes out stillborn i'm kinda screwed for chronological order and junk. if i have a newyears resolution it's to write down more in notebooks. i've been getting better at it, i think it's something i can stick to. it's fun anyway.
2007 is an odd year. if i could, i'd start this passing year in june 2006 and end it in this september, then start a new year from there. as it stands, high marks all around in the end. probably the happiest and most miserable year i've had in a long time, which sounds kinda crappy but beats the hell out of the "dooooh, i don't have feelings, blaaaaah, i don't hate life it's just unbearably boring" junk i used to spout. i've always had the theory the 4 of each decade is the defining year of that decade and by the 8 everything's either died off or reached it's cleft. the zero's are already twitching in the gutter, so i'm excited to see what's going to fester out of 2007's gunshot wounds and become it's own concious being. c'mmon 2008, let's tear this shit down.