my word
I don't know if God has been listening to me or maybe I just some how got lucky... but
I feel better about work and my outlook has gotten much brighter. I havent woken up with the "sick" feeling lately. I have much more tolerance than I have had in a long time. My reactions are slow because I put much thought into what it is that I am reacting to. According to my psych teacher I am a type B personality. I never would of thought. I'm much more chill now than I have ever been.
On to the next topic.
I don't want to put myself down but...Sometimes I feel like I dont do enough even though it is very clear that I do. For example, I started donating to the feed the children foundation. I rescued a dog yesterday and took it to the humaine society though I was limited on time. I bought gifts for the girls at work, in attempt to maybe capture some peace out of them or maybe just a smile. I talk to my mom regularly. I see my family as often as I can. I try to offer as much positive advice to people no matter what kind of a mood i'm in. Anything that I ever half ass is usually something that involves just MYSELF. I do favors for people even when they ask me at the most inconvienant times. I pray but more importantly I talk to God as if he was standing before me and ask for his will and not mine.
but then at the end of day I still have room to shoot myself down. Like it isnt good enough. I think that it is because I know that I can do more but I dont.
Ahh. fuck it. I guess i'm allowed to be lazy sometimes right? I can only be me and no one else. I need to start realizing that I am not other people and my life is different. The other side says " work harder janelle"
My own voice will be the death of me. AHHHH!
I feel better about work and my outlook has gotten much brighter. I havent woken up with the "sick" feeling lately. I have much more tolerance than I have had in a long time. My reactions are slow because I put much thought into what it is that I am reacting to. According to my psych teacher I am a type B personality. I never would of thought. I'm much more chill now than I have ever been.
On to the next topic.
I don't want to put myself down but...Sometimes I feel like I dont do enough even though it is very clear that I do. For example, I started donating to the feed the children foundation. I rescued a dog yesterday and took it to the humaine society though I was limited on time. I bought gifts for the girls at work, in attempt to maybe capture some peace out of them or maybe just a smile. I talk to my mom regularly. I see my family as often as I can. I try to offer as much positive advice to people no matter what kind of a mood i'm in. Anything that I ever half ass is usually something that involves just MYSELF. I do favors for people even when they ask me at the most inconvienant times. I pray but more importantly I talk to God as if he was standing before me and ask for his will and not mine.
but then at the end of day I still have room to shoot myself down. Like it isnt good enough. I think that it is because I know that I can do more but I dont.
Ahh. fuck it. I guess i'm allowed to be lazy sometimes right? I can only be me and no one else. I need to start realizing that I am not other people and my life is different. The other side says " work harder janelle"
My own voice will be the death of me. AHHHH!