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I haven't updated in a LOONG TIME! Beacause my summer, the first 2 or 3 months of my marriage has completely sucked. Dan and I are fine, but everything else sucked. Dan's family is competely torn apart, and I haven't taken it too well. Dan's been going to Auto Mechanic school Mon-Fri and then he works on the weekends. He hates his job. They give him no hours and they treat him like crap. He used to be a supervisor at his old store, and he was making good money! Even though he got a rasie when he transferred, he gets less hours now. He's looking for a new job. Something to do with cars would be good! He really likes school. He's the top of his class! He LOVES working on cars and learning about them. I'm so glad he finally found his "thing." I wish I could find mine....
I was working as a mobile dog groomer all summer, but I was making only commission, and my paychecks were inconsistent. My schedule was all over the place and I was working my ass off! It sucked! I finally quit and found another job. Now I'm a nanny for a baby girl. I haven't started yet, but they seem like a really great family. And I'll finally have a consistent paycheck!
I feel like my life has no purpose. I have no calling. I'm not going to school, I have no career plans. I am just miserable! I'm so tired of this dirty apartment, and this city. I'm so tired of Daniel complaining about how much he hates his job. Ugh, and we have NO money! I start my new job on Monday, and I can't wait to have money!! We can never pay the bills, we can't go to the movies, I can't buy new clothes. I can barely afford food!
My sister says my husband and I live like old people. We wake up everyday at 5:30AM, go to work/school, then come home, do absolutely NOTHING all day but lie around in a burning hot
un-air conditioned apartment, eat dinner at 4:30PM, watch TV and go to bed at 8:30PM. Then, I wake up and do it all over again.
I'M GOING CRAZY! I can't stand this stupid life! I have no idea how to be young! What do people my age do for fun? We never have money to go out anywhere, and we have absolutely no friends.
I just want a house with a beautiful yard and a couple of children. Ah....my dream life. I want to be a mom, not some boring person with no purpose in life. I want to be involved in something. I want to be a PTA mom. I want to be a church lady, and lead a bible study. I want to volunteer at an animal shelter.
My dream life will come in 1 1/2 years, when Daniel finishes his auto mechanic school and we move back to Simi Valley and buy a house to settle down in.Until then, I don't know what to do. I'm not sure I can handle another 16 months of this. I spend my weekends alone, while dan is at work all night. I sit on the couch all day reading Family Circle and Women's Day Magazines. I wish I knew how to knit so I could at least waste my time making something. See? I really am an old lady....
What should I do? What do married couples without kids do? How can I make friends? What kind of music do young people listen to? I need to update my music library. All I have is a bunch of Star Wars and Futurama music. I really need a hobby of some kind.
Any suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks.