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Im just gonna get everything out in the open and thats on my mind. I hate the fact that I care too much about what people think about me. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it. Maybe thats where my anxiety comes from. My car is a piece of crap, I swear its gonna take me getting in another car accident and me dieing for my parents to realize I need a new car. I hate driving in it, I hate when people make fun of it, its the only thing that gets me around from clarkston to farmington. Speaking of driving..Im sick of it, all I do is drive for 40 minutes a day. I hate living far, but I dont wanna switch schools, sometimes I dont think my friends realize that Im making sacrifices to stay with them. I never hang out with Lizzy anymore, and thats the one thing I wanna do, Jack really wants me to hang out with her because he thinks I need girl time with my BEST friend. But its hard cuz I know shes busy. I just miss her. I hate to say it but she has gotton new best friends, even though thats no problem dont get me wrong, but I just miss the way it used to be. I also wish I could change a relationship I have with someone. I wish we could get closer as friends but its just too hard for him. I miss our 2 hours talks online about stupid stuff, and I miss going to scary movies with him. I know things change but I dont want them to, yes I have an amazing boyfriend now whom I love to death, but I think some of my friends thinks that me having a boyfriend means thats all I care about. I mean I'm happy, I really am, but things could get better and I hope they do.
I would do anything for my friends, I just hope they know that. I didnt mean for this thing I wrote to sound like Im selfish, just getting my thoughts out.