Selbsterkenntnis
Yeah... I just realized something which everyone around me probably knows since the day we first met. I don't have a live full of stress... I'm simply disorganized.
The closer MMC get's the more I get in panic... "OhmygodallthosepeopleIluvsomuchandIhaventtalkedtosinceforever" and I feel bad for not writing mails and journal entries, and for being slow with art and for simply being how I am. I decided to change that today. no... not the disorganization. I tried that for my whole life. One day it will happen... (hopefully ;) and I can't really change that.
No... I'm talking about changing the bad conscience. I will try to not feel bad anymore about not talking to people through the net. If I have the urge to write something I will... if not I won't. This does not mean, that I'm gonna loose contact to people I love. I know a lot of people live by the sentence "Out of sight out of mind" but I don't. I'm still as happy to see someone after a longer time and my feelings for people I haven't seen in a while don't change.
So if you can live with the fact... that I still like/love/heart you even though I haven't staid in contact for quite some time it would make me very happy ^^ And this doesn't mean that I'm gonna drop of from the world... it only means that I take a bit emotional distance from the stress I make myself with the net... because sometimes it starts to be quite unhealthy for my emotions...
I know this sounds weird... but actually I AM weirdness in person usually.... so it's just me XD
So yeah... I hope I won't get backstabbed for that on MMC... because I'm really looking forward to see all of you again *feels all happy and can't wait for thursday to come*
And for the rest of my live right now:
-Work's awesome
-Live goes alright
-Family is annoying *whimpers*
That's the short version XD I might or might not write a longer one... we'll see *wavies*
Nel
The closer MMC get's the more I get in panic... "OhmygodallthosepeopleIluvsomuchandIhaventtalkedtosinceforever" and I feel bad for not writing mails and journal entries, and for being slow with art and for simply being how I am. I decided to change that today. no... not the disorganization. I tried that for my whole life. One day it will happen... (hopefully ;) and I can't really change that.
No... I'm talking about changing the bad conscience. I will try to not feel bad anymore about not talking to people through the net. If I have the urge to write something I will... if not I won't. This does not mean, that I'm gonna loose contact to people I love. I know a lot of people live by the sentence "Out of sight out of mind" but I don't. I'm still as happy to see someone after a longer time and my feelings for people I haven't seen in a while don't change.
So if you can live with the fact... that I still like/love/heart you even though I haven't staid in contact for quite some time it would make me very happy ^^ And this doesn't mean that I'm gonna drop of from the world... it only means that I take a bit emotional distance from the stress I make myself with the net... because sometimes it starts to be quite unhealthy for my emotions...
I know this sounds weird... but actually I AM weirdness in person usually.... so it's just me XD
So yeah... I hope I won't get backstabbed for that on MMC... because I'm really looking forward to see all of you again *feels all happy and can't wait for thursday to come*
And for the rest of my live right now:
-Work's awesome
-Live goes alright
-Family is annoying *whimpers*
That's the short version XD I might or might not write a longer one... we'll see *wavies*
Nel