i would do most anything to get you back by my side

[nekrodoll]

if i could take back time i would have held you longer, kissed you longer, stared at you longer, never would have let you leave. its only been a few hours since we had to drop tom off at the airport. he told me not to cry and i didnt... i pretended to be strong, didnt want to make a mess out of things. but i sure as hell cant help it now. sitting here in your tshirt and boxers that you left for me, i can still smell you on me and on your bed and everywhere we were. you made my summer worth something, youve made my life worth something. i feel like i cant look anywhere without thinking of you, without thinking of us. i swear i will see you by christmas. i had such a wonderful weekend, thank you tom, thank you tom, thank you tom.

the cure was fucking amazing. one of the best shows ive seen... EVER. and i couldnt have had a better time with anyone else. kissing you and dancing with you to the cure is so perfect. they played like their best fucking songs... i can only think of 3 songs they didnt play that would have been fab (Lullaby, The Kiss, Wrong Number). 3 fucking encores. it was so fucking awesome... fuck fuck fuck. i love the cure. cursive, interpol, auf der mar, the rapture, mogwai were all good too, cursive was great though.

my mommy really understands me right now... she knows im hurting. shes glad he was able to came, i know shes sincere about it as well.

thank you
xoxo
Bettie Rage