What is really real in Reality TV?
To my dear dear goma
you called it betrayal when i left you. i knew this was coming, i remember the cameras, but now its actually out. this is betrayal. your exposing things, a side thats not meant to be seen, a way in for anybody that wants to know. God knows i love you all from the deepest part of my heart, but this is not you, this is not what you should be doing. You yelled at me when i told one person, now you're telling the entire country. The day you told me i was excited, then i realized what that meant. am i on any of the episodes? is my face going to get any more exposure? Guarenteed safety? is our lifestyle just a three ring circus to you? i miss him too, he was my godfather, loved him deeply, but the fact that hes gone doesnt mean you have to continue this outgoing media friendly shit he started. its not right. its breaking apart what once was so powerful. youre spoiling the kids too much (and myself), and you know it, and now everybody will know it. i saw your pictures in the Entertainment magazines. your a bad example of how we work. BAD FUCKING EXAMPLES. its not my place to say this at all, but i know you all love me, i love you too, youve been basically my second family, i love the boys, and i love my family, but this is going to far. you media whore
love always, miss angelina
Ive been given the offer, no threat, no threat, no threat?
Maybe i made a mistake. maybe i dont want to leave... no not now... not yet, the reason i left wasnt because of Vinny, if anything that would usually just make me want to stay in... revenge is a bitch... i promised tom. i promised him i would quit. and i did, but i have this feeling of guilt stuck deep inside that weighs me down almost nonstop.
did i make the right decision?
if i could take back one thing this whole summer, it wouldnt be getting caught for the shoplifting, it wouldnt be the fights... it would be cancelling my ireland trip to stay with vinny in the hospital. i dont think ive ever felt loss like this. it hit hard when it first happend, then i think i started beliving that it didnt really happen... but now when i see your faces and the faces of my family i realize it happend. goddamnit, nobody and absolutly nothing can explain how much it hurts to lose a part of you... my best friend, my cousin, me. fuck, this isnt fair. its just one more thing to add the the memories and nightmares i have thus far. im only 16. i shouldnt be dealing with this. i need to stop writing for now. its too much. i need to think
I FUCKING HATE THE MEDIA, AND STEREOTYPES, AND THESE FAKE MOVIES
you called it betrayal when i left you. i knew this was coming, i remember the cameras, but now its actually out. this is betrayal. your exposing things, a side thats not meant to be seen, a way in for anybody that wants to know. God knows i love you all from the deepest part of my heart, but this is not you, this is not what you should be doing. You yelled at me when i told one person, now you're telling the entire country. The day you told me i was excited, then i realized what that meant. am i on any of the episodes? is my face going to get any more exposure? Guarenteed safety? is our lifestyle just a three ring circus to you? i miss him too, he was my godfather, loved him deeply, but the fact that hes gone doesnt mean you have to continue this outgoing media friendly shit he started. its not right. its breaking apart what once was so powerful. youre spoiling the kids too much (and myself), and you know it, and now everybody will know it. i saw your pictures in the Entertainment magazines. your a bad example of how we work. BAD FUCKING EXAMPLES. its not my place to say this at all, but i know you all love me, i love you too, youve been basically my second family, i love the boys, and i love my family, but this is going to far. you media whore
love always, miss angelina
Ive been given the offer, no threat, no threat, no threat?
Maybe i made a mistake. maybe i dont want to leave... no not now... not yet, the reason i left wasnt because of Vinny, if anything that would usually just make me want to stay in... revenge is a bitch... i promised tom. i promised him i would quit. and i did, but i have this feeling of guilt stuck deep inside that weighs me down almost nonstop.
did i make the right decision?
if i could take back one thing this whole summer, it wouldnt be getting caught for the shoplifting, it wouldnt be the fights... it would be cancelling my ireland trip to stay with vinny in the hospital. i dont think ive ever felt loss like this. it hit hard when it first happend, then i think i started beliving that it didnt really happen... but now when i see your faces and the faces of my family i realize it happend. goddamnit, nobody and absolutly nothing can explain how much it hurts to lose a part of you... my best friend, my cousin, me. fuck, this isnt fair. its just one more thing to add the the memories and nightmares i have thus far. im only 16. i shouldnt be dealing with this. i need to stop writing for now. its too much. i need to think
I FUCKING HATE THE MEDIA, AND STEREOTYPES, AND THESE FAKE MOVIES