You change your mind, like a girl changes clothes.
I hate this.
I have been enjoying sleeping over at Aaron's house. Sex is great, he has a comfy bed, and it keeps me sort of sane.
But part of me wants more. I want that relationship aspect of things. Sure, Aaron and I talk... But he is by no means a boyfriend. Nor do I think he ever could be. He is 29, just got a fantastic new job, owns his own condo...
I am 19, working a mediocre office job, living with my mother and my dogs.
wut?
I've had options. I know Bryan wants to hook up with me, because of that one time we had sex. But I don't like Bryan. I was pretty close to drunk when we had sex, the sex was dreadful, he is a terrible kisser, and I don't like the way he lives his life.
I am completely envious of my cousin Mary and her fantastical amazing boyfriend. Keith is the kind of guy every girl wants for a boyfriend.
Maybe if I wasn't fat I could find a guy like that.
I have also been missing Shan a lot. Like a lot a lot. What bothers me the most is that I don't know why. I convinced myself that I wasn't in love with him... Maybe it was just the fact that he was completely devoted to me. My brain is just completely confused and overloaded.
I want sex.
I want love.
I want the single life.
I think I have a few issues.
I have been enjoying sleeping over at Aaron's house. Sex is great, he has a comfy bed, and it keeps me sort of sane.
But part of me wants more. I want that relationship aspect of things. Sure, Aaron and I talk... But he is by no means a boyfriend. Nor do I think he ever could be. He is 29, just got a fantastic new job, owns his own condo...
I am 19, working a mediocre office job, living with my mother and my dogs.
wut?
I've had options. I know Bryan wants to hook up with me, because of that one time we had sex. But I don't like Bryan. I was pretty close to drunk when we had sex, the sex was dreadful, he is a terrible kisser, and I don't like the way he lives his life.
I am completely envious of my cousin Mary and her fantastical amazing boyfriend. Keith is the kind of guy every girl wants for a boyfriend.
Maybe if I wasn't fat I could find a guy like that.
I have also been missing Shan a lot. Like a lot a lot. What bothers me the most is that I don't know why. I convinced myself that I wasn't in love with him... Maybe it was just the fact that he was completely devoted to me. My brain is just completely confused and overloaded.
I want sex.
I want love.
I want the single life.
I think I have a few issues.